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Are you leaving me alone?

Tell me everything was a lie.

Miles of bars with

patches of rust.

Fuck, I can't be me without you.

Straight lies to my face.

I left, but,

couldn't escape.

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My days are beginning to feel

like a life sentence.

Lay low,

try not to grieve.

For the chips,

pieces of me that have flaked off

while I claw through this cement.

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I can't hate you,

but I can't save you.

You walk in and

I'm running out.

Promise beams of precious

freedom,

puffs of breath -

breathe;

Some things are better left forgotten.

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You said you'd grow old with me.

Now all my time is tracing,

tracing lingering specks of my life

in sunlight;

those sunbeam promises.

Take my fever dreams

with a gulp of goodbyes.

One last word,

one last moment,

In the darkness of my sentence.

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You still crave me.

This heart in my chest

is cracking,

forgotten behind bars.

Where I'm surrounded by killers

with true love disguises.

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Strip me of my covers,

as you brandish my dignity.

Will the pain like who I was?

Breathe.

Tell me something different,

I just want you to love me.

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My lungs feel full of glass now,

miserable inside,

they want me to shatter.

I'm a gallows of a spectacle,

skin for all to see;

porcelain for all to see,

but worth only half as much as Priceless.

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Breathe.

I hear you,

always tuned to the wishes in your

exhales.

Stationed within your village

of residents,

your harem.

Being who I really am

leaving me alone.

My prison built of excuses,

the air like sandpaper.

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You were my battlefield,

with a casualty of one.

No way to run from this,

meet me in the waves.

Saints and history playing on repeat,

me as your camouflage,

I'll be the first to fall.

In the dark of night,

I will be the victim of my own

War.

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Pure dove of peace,

afraid of who she is;

sirens ringing in her head.

This cage is constructed for a beautiful

monster;

monster that you made me.

Breathe.

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Only see me when I'm melted,

get off by my velvet tears.

You are my devil

with a skeleton key.

One that once glimmered gold,

before love came to kill us.