to me niall is telling the truth when he says alby is the only man he's ever had feelings for and when he says his love for ruben is the only thing he's ever felt. these statements are contradictory and both true. dialectics

happy pride to every professional athlete in love with their teammate

the first rule of sports rpf is u must eroticize the bro hug

for a second u think niall’s going to reach the knife and stab ruben a second, third, fourth time. over and over until he’s dead on the ground. instead, on top of being sexually assaulted again, niall suffers a long, terrifying, painful death. and then he’s gone. still and pale. no triumphant end. no real revenge. it’s so pointless. death is so pointless. and sudden and strange. here one minute, away the next. even ruben can’t believe it. and then he just lets himself die next to the only person he’s probably ever truly loved.