Defleptic

And to give Will HOPE with the short scene of Mike apologizing and saying, "not friends." The look on his face. "Best friends." And I still didn't give up hope until the very last second.

I feel insane.

I'm actually heartbroken. I would have given everything to have representation of internalized homophobia, best friends to lovers, and all of it leading to a healthy gay relationship. I'm so sick of the heartache and being yanked around on a string when it comes to this. Having Will go through ALL of that just to end up with some random guy? And for Mike to just mourn his girlfriend ? Friend ? For the rest of his life?

What even happened? They gave Will so much hope and crushed it all so he could go end up with some random guy at a bar. Yippee. hooray. My heart is in the depths of hell rn. I needed to hope for something meaningful, as do so many other people in the lgbtq+ community. But we got the FUCKING. EPILOGUE. BOYFRIEND.

This show and these characters meant so much to me. Instead of tears at the end of a decade long journey, I got nothing. I felt nothing for the end of a show I've re watched a million times, crying at the smallest things every time I watched it over. But, now, I feel nothing. Numb and hopeless.

rough sketch I'll probably never finish 💐 (I gave up on rendering)