For my DadDee🐺 (yes I'm owned, and proud to be😺)

I see what lies behind those beautiful eyes, I see the darkness in you. I see the pain you carry inside, and the desires that come with it. The ones you hid from the world, the ones you’ve even tried to hide from yourself. The ones you’ve given into at times, the ones you’ve suffered from. The ones you hate yourself for having. Maybe that frightens you. To have another see through every wall and deception you can muster, too see through even the lies you tell yourself. Maybe it’s confusing. How someone could see your darkness, and still love you despite it. How someone could even try to. Maybe you lie and attempt to sabotage that care, that affection, that love, even if you don’t like to. You want so desperately to feel loved, to be accepted, to feel worthy. To look in the mirror and not be angry and disgusted with yourself. Maybe you think it’s too good to be true, you think I was to good to be true. I waded in your murky waters and grabbed your sinking hand. I gave you the option of coming up for air or drowning us both. Maybe you secretly feel a hatred towards me for that, because you believe you deserve to drown. But I knew you’d choose to breathe, I saw all of you. You’re kind and caring, creative and bright, gentle and soft, yet strong and capable. You hate to see others suffer as you have. You have a good heart, as broken and blackened as it may be, and you loved me with it. And despite it all I loved you with mine. Even after seeing from the very beginning, what lies behind those eyes. Maybe you choose to run because it’s the only way to get what you believe you deserve, and the only way to hide that darkness. Maybe, we’re not so different.

@deeveeus36, This is is My Love 💓

I hate how sensitive I am. No one can bear to be around me. It always leads to conflict because every fucking thing hurts me. And then I’m called manipulative, a sensitive bitch and what not. I don’t mean to be the above but I don’t know why I’m so sensitive and how I ended up being this person

@deeveeus36 I am sorry I am this way, I don't mean to be

Ever cried in your bed curled up in a ball because you’re alive and can’t die?