Eternal Agony

I'm like if a missing person was literally right there

when Mitski said “I think my brain is rotting in places, I think my heart is ready to die. I think my body is pulling in pieces, I think my blood is passing me by.”

“tell me about yourself” has got to be the most god awful stupid fucking question ever wtf do you mean

quick question: how the fuck do I get through the rest of my life like this

I can feel it happening again. I'm slipping away. There's a hole in my chest. I'm spending money on things that I don't need. I can feel myself spiraling. I'm at the point where I need to decide whether I should just let it happen or exhaust myself by trying to fight it. It's such an endless cycle. When will this end? Why can't I just be normal for once?

in deep psychological distress: i should make a post on the internet

everything hurts and i don’t wanna be here anymore

"Wow, you're so self-aware! It takes most people years of therapy and dedication to get to that point." Thanks, I constantly feel completely disconnected from my physical being and the material sensation of my body, brain, and spirit/soul is so overwhelming that I often have to see myself as an objective third-party instead of an integrated entity. Father son holy spirit and all that.