meh

Because of my anxiety I feel odd saying certain things to people because I dont want to seem too ‘much’. So I am going to use this post as my years long outlet. Feel free to read if you want to see me act like a thirsty bitch

I sexualize myself whenever I reach a low point mentally. I fear I will never find love so I desperately reach out for any attention and affection I can get. This usually leads to lots of casual interactions with people in my life that will never go beyond just that. I try going on dates but with my anxiety and residual effects from my accident its hard for me to find people i really connect with both personally and sexually. The few times I do it still doesn’t work. The last almost relationship I had we had to end things because he had to move back to south africa and wasn’t sure when or if he would ever come back. 

Oh well. 

I just want someone to think im pretty and want to hold my hand. Someone that understands the issues I can’t fix and hate about myself and doesn’t make me feel worse about them. 

I can’t remember who almost any of these people are