Vic ♡ INFP 🩷 ☀️libra ⬆️scorpio🌙capricorn

I don't want to exist let me disappear

i think people dont understand that if i have a paranoid disorder, im going to be paranoid, all the time, without fail. sometimes less, sometimes more. if i have an episode, you cant do anything about it. ill believe it until i dont. thats all. im not just going to stop being paranoid because im told im being paranoid or told that it isnt true. in fact, ill even start to resent you for it if you press me too rudely on how im wrong. i know i am, i cant change it, and now youre being mean to me. who is this going to help? certainly not me, because now i have another thing to be paranoid about. thanks.

i think people dont understand that if i have a paranoid disorder, im going to be paranoid, all the time, without fail. sometimes less, sometimes more. if i have an episode, you cant do anything about it. ill believe it until i dont. thats all. im not just going to stop being paranoid because im told im being paranoid or told that it isnt true. in fact, ill even start to resent you for it if you press me too rudely on how im wrong. i know i am, i cant change it, and now youre being mean to me. who is this going to help? certainly not me, because now i have another thing to be paranoid about. thanks.