𝔴𝔥𝔞𝔱𝔰 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔭𝔬𝔦𝔫𝔱?

Riverside cottage in Eastleach Martin, Cotswolds

you will find him even when he is not there.

just being really silent, suffering from unbearable self hate, believing everyone hates you

feeling watched, paranoid in public and judged

experiencing life trough a white fog, not being able to see, hear everything - not feeling anything

feeling numb and unreal, depressive episodes - not being able to move

self harm

feeling highly agitated, experiencing anger, rage - behaving violently against loved once - being verbally and physically aggressive, abusive

behaving like a little kid, child-like expressions, speech and behaviors - needing constant attention and help

often experiencing more than one of the above at once

other disorders factor in - such as eating disorders

chronic feelings of emptiness

basically having no hobbies

not being able to find a passion

not experiencing happiness trough hobbies or people

but really wanting to do something fun and fulfilling

being tired, having depression

rushing into new hobbies and needing equipment immediately, spending a lot of money

but loosing interest quickly and easily

not pursuing hobbies due to no instant success

not being able to act on a hobby cause you’re highly agitated

feeling numb all day, even around loved ones and doing something actually fun