HONOR / HORROR.

      ❛    I  HAD  NOT  EXPECTED  TO  SEE  YOU  HERE ,  MY  FRIEND .    ❜  in  a  different  circumstance  this  greeting  would  be  jovial ,  even  gleeful .  but  here  seeing  him  on  the  battlefield  in  such  a  state  brings  an  entirely  different  emotion  within  the  elder .  there  is  a  graveness  to  his  words ,  a  gentle  ache  within  his  chest  as  gaze  rests  on  his  old  friend .  

      HE  HAD  MOURNED  HIM ,  HE  HAD  GRIEVED  HIM  &  had  allowed  himself  to  move  on  from  the  heavy  weight  that  is  losing  one  so  close  to  you .  he  had  never  dreamed  of  seeing  him  again  nor  in  this  fashion .  he  cannot  decide  if  he’s  happy  with  this  outcome  yet  or  if  he’d  wished  glenn  had  died  in  duscur  all  those  years  ago .  ❛    what’s  with  the  look ?    ❜  he  asks  &  there’s  a  melancholy  playfulness  in  his  words ,  deciding  that  perhaps  humor  will  lift  the  heaviness  in  his  heart .  ❛    forgotten  your  old  friend ?  glenn ,  i’m  hurt .    ❜

@deathshonor​  //  i  cling  to  your  ghost  but  i  reach  nothing  but  the  shadows  in  your  eyes .

my friend ———— my friend ———— my friend ( ... ) ?

it’s / confusing? overwhelming. strange and odd and too much not enough where and what when and who ———— who? who are ( ... ) you? the mirror the reflection the / man. wait, the man? pause. or stop? or continue. the conceptualization of the self is fragmented and shattered and crumbling and his gaze / turns. settles.

he doesn’t know what he looks like. is that strange? perhaps. perhaps. except he knows precisely what he looks like a version of what he looks like scattered images thoughts memories that boy that man that ———— not this one. who / what a circular line of thought. how useless. a rusted weapon. a dulled and shattered blade.

( gleaming black and navy and she was beautiful and she was killed and she was slaughtered and what’s her name / what’s her name / what’s her name why don’t you remember why can’t you remember WHERE DID SHE GO WHERE WHERE WHERE WHERE ——— )

breathing. breathing. lungs inflating and chest rising and there’s the crumbling of the self and the crumbling of what lies just beyond and he’s slipping / slipping / falling and falling and FALLING AND WHO IS HE WHO IS HE WHO.

dead stop. silence.

an axe in his hands. a swordsman before him whose hair is long and long and long and his mind aches and pain lances through him and he / weapon / it / it / WHO ARE YOU / eyes. bright eyes. copper eyes. severe and narrowed and attacking / attacking / attacking. it hurts. it hurts.

                where are those eyes.                 right there.                 who do they belong to?                 this thing. this person. this soon to be dead man.                 where have you seen them before?                 stop. stop. stop. you don’t want to know. you don’t want to know.                                 YOU DON’T WANT TO KNOW.

a crash. a crack. falling. falling. falling. who is he. who is he. WHO IS HE. stop asking that. stop asking that. stop fucking asking that.

sunlight on his skin / burns / when has he last seen the sun? oh : a lifetime ago.

      THERE’S  A  FONDNESS  IN  THE  ELDER’S  EYES ,  a  look  of  mixed  endearment  &  amusement .  he  laughs  lightly  &  shakes  his  head .  ❛    correct  me  if  i’m  wrong  but  i  don’t  believe  preparing  food  is  one  of  the  desired  skills  of  knighthood .  but  if  you  insist  i  doubt  i  can  do  much  to  sway  you .    ❜  he’s  aware  of  glenn’s  tendency  to  be  unrelenting  once  he’s  set  his  mind  to  something .  not  even  christophe’s  incurable  charm  could  change  his  mind .  ❛    can  at  least  count  on  you  to  us  for  dinner ?  i  believe  we’re  meant  to  be  making  one  of  your  favorites .    ❜  he  flashes  another  smile .  maybe  he  can  find  some  use  for  his  effortless  charm .

      THE  ASPIRING  KNIGHT  MAKES  AN  OVERDRAMATIC  POUT  in  response  to  the  others  words .  ❛    you  wound  me ,  good  sir .    ❜  the  hand  that  had  rested  on  the  glenn’s  shoulder  clutching  his  heart  in  order  to  feign  said  wound  he’d  just  spoken  of .  ❛    can’t  you  shed  a  little  bit  of  that  attitude  &  help  your  old  friend ?    ❜  he  chooses  to  ignore  the  comment  about  the  girl  in  question .  best  to  keep  appearances  he  thinks .

      ❛    GLENN  —    ❜  the  elder’s  voice  is  warm  &  friendly  (  as  it  always  seems  to  be  ) ,  slapping  a  strong  hand  upon  the  other’s  shoulder .  ❛    you  mind  filling  in  for  me  on  cooking  duty  tonight ?  i  promised  cassandra  i’d  help  her  with  something .    ❜  a  pause  &  he  flashes  the  younger  a  charming  smile .  ❛  i  promise  i’ll  make  it  up  to  you  —  anything  you  want .    ❜

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