Unspoken Words

Red velvet 🎂

I need a getaway, my life what a fucking mess it is. I know life can be hard but it shouldn’t be to the point to where i feel Ike nothing is worth living for. Everyone loves to tell me how worthless I am and likes to criticizes me for what I’m not doing. I want to disappear and go live a life of not having to worry about what other people think of me and for me to live a life not having to worry about what others think of me. Sometimes I really don’t know what keeping me hear, I guess it’s because I’m afraid of what happens to your soul after you die and honestly I don’t think I would be at peace because I’m not here in the life I’m living. I’m 26 and I still don’t have a purpose in life, damn I feel like I’m complaining but when you’re not happy in the life that you’re living the correct answer is to change it right? Right, but when you’ve tried to become better for yourself and for the others around and it’s still not enough and the people around still nic-pic at you. I have dreams but I fear that I won’t be able to live them out because the the darkness is consuming and swallowing me whole. The fun loving girl, that at one point was so full of life is slowly fading away and she may never come back.