A foolish poet

(Previously: 'obsessed-deadset' before account got terminated (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠))

Name: Issac

Age: 20

Gender: Male

Pronouns: He/Him

Sexuality: Pansexual

Strictly monogamous

Relationship status: Very much taken by my lovely wife who is perfect in every way!!!<3

Likes: Games, anime, manga/manwha, poetry, tattoos/piercings.

TW: imagery/mentions of nsfw, sh, blood, gore, cannibalism, suicide, death, other dark themes as well.

Anons: 🖤,🌹,🐕,🐇,𓏲 ๋࣭ ࣪ ˖🎐

DNI: minors, racists, transphobes, homophobes, xenophobes, etc.

Color coded posts:

Red text: Poetry/Writings

Pink text: Vent/Rant

Default color: answering asks/anons

This feeling is something I really never feel.

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This warmth.

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This feeling that swells up in my chest.

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I feel so safe in your arms.

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Just your attention is enough.

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Or even your presence.

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I just want to feel you.

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To live inside your heart.

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My thorn stabbed inside it forever.

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That pain in your core is me.

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Only soothed in my care.

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We'll always love each other.

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When we're in each other's embrace.

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It's warm,

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It's safe,

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It's home.

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The only place we can ever truly feel happy,

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And there will be no other place like it.

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Because we have ourselves trapped within.

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Locked away from the rest of the world forever.

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That's the only way it should be.

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When you shoot your gaze at me,

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I can't move mine away.

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You stun me with your look,

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But when am I ever not stunned by you?

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Sometimes you catch me staring at you.

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You wake up and find my eyes already looking into yours.

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And you stare back.

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I can't help but melt into you.

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You make me want to control every single thing about you.

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And at the same time,

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Make me so helpless against you.

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Feeling your body meld into me.

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We're so perfect for each other aren't we?

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Not even a question about it because we are.

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You hold onto me so tightly,

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Whispering your sweet little threats to me if I ever leave.

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Knowing full well I'd never leave you no matter what,

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Knowing I would do the same if you ever considered separating from me.

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Our twisted words that fill each other with warmth.

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Our own form of love I will never get enough of.

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I pick up a smell that is all too familiar.

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Only you could have this smell.

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I can feel it worming its way through my nostrils and into my body.

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I follow it energetically hoping it leads to your side.

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There you are with your arms already begging me into them.

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You picked up on my scent as well,

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Of course you did.

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Always proving how perfect you are for me.

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I stroke your hair and trail my finger across the bruise on your neck.

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Mine.

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You pinch at my face,

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Covered in lipstick from all the kisses you grace me with.

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"Mine."

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I hear you whisper in my ear softly,

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Feeling your words bind my heart to yours ever further.

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Your love I can't ever live without.

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I love you my beloved wife.

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A crash.

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A sweep across my legs that takes me from the ground.

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A strong gust of wind that makes me feel afloat.

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My vision goes dark.

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I awake to find you in front of me.

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You comfort me and offer your kindness to me as your captive.

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Afraid of this being something that'll hurt me I resist your charms.

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I attempt to be distant,

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Not letting myself fall for one so easily.

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But I only lie to myself but doing such.

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Your words quickly wormed their way into my mind.

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I finally opened up and we expressed our similarities.

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Too many to count.

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Too many to be true.

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Yet we were the same.

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It was foolish of me to try and deny.

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You were the one.

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You were the one I had dreamed about meeting for as long as I can remember.

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The one I cried endless nights for,

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To be in my life.

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To love me as I would love you.

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And you do.

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The one I've been searching and yearning for.

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I never ever thought dreams were something meant to come true.

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Especially mine.

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And yet, here you are.

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Fallen into my arms as you so effortlessly embrace my heart.

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Being everything we've been looking for all our life.

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Finally meeting each other.

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Swiped me off my feet as quickly as you swiped my heart.

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I wish for our eternal happiness and devotion to one another.

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I no longer have to wish for a future I was so unsure of becoming reality.

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I love you my darling.

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May our love transcend the boundaries of the universe.

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In which those boundaries wouldn't be enough to contain our love.

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I will love you in every single life.

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As you are eternally mine as I am yours.

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You release me from my chains,

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threatening me if I ever dared to think of leaving you.

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Holding the chains I wrap around your neck,

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I do the same.

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I would never want to leave you in the first place my darling.

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I wish I was as hopeful as you, yet maybe I should settle for a life of being alone, no one can really love the worst parts of me.

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Oh and thank you for taking care of the roses! I still have the first one you gave back and I've been caring for it all this time too.

Hope you're having a good day, dear-poeticlove.

Thank you I am that drink specifically because it's delicious <⁠(⁠￣⁠︶⁠￣⁠)⁠>

Of course I have been keeping an eye on them, can't let them wilt again :) and I'm glad you take care of them just as attentively!

Your life is carried inside of this liquid.

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A beautiful liquid with your beautiful essence in it.

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It's scent being so refreshing to my senses,

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Just the sight of it filling me with ecstasy,

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The taste is oh so euphoric.

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Of course,

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Only your blood has this effect on me.

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Everyone else's is too disgusting to let on me ever.

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But I can bite your lip and make you bleed,

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And kiss you with your precious blood filling my lungs.

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As this is the best feeling for me.

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How have you been? read through your blog already but I'd like to check it more clearly coming from you.

I'm glad you're doing better at least, even if you just needed a week, welcome back and I hope things aren't as busy this go around!! ^^

It's such a wonderful thing isn't it.

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A feeling that makes you feel so warm, so safe.

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Giving you a purpose for your life,

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To be somebody else's purpose as well.

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A warmth to consume you entirely as to not live without it.

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It consumes every part of your body,

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All for them.

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All so they can be happy just as they make you happy.

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For they give you a piece of yourself that has been missing.

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You can't help but keep staring at them.

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Feeling as if they'd disappear if you took your gaze off of them for one second.

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This overwhelming love bubbling up at every thought of them.

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You just need them more than any other.

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A love that is just as much as it is devotion.

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An obsession tied together with all the love in the heart and more.

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But no amount of words could ever convey how strong and deep that love is.

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It is a love that is boundless,

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And nothing in the entire universe could ever contain that love.

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A pain arouses your neck.

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A cold, sharp sting,

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Piercing the skin of your throat.

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Then a numbness.

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A numbness to the pain that has sunken into your flesh.

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Growing ever bigger by the more teeth being used.

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Just as there begins to be this growing soreness.

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The blood cells beneath your skin breaking down more and more.

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Then the set of teeth digging deeper,

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Now set into the muscle.

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Before a release of the sting.

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Now left a bruise and holes where teeth resided.

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A moistness left behind from the breath.

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A trail of blood dripping down the collarbone.

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A beautiful mark of what belongs to me.

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A precious mark on me of what belongs to you my future beloved.

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Just popped in to say that I find a lot of your blog relatable and I very much get your vent posts too.

I'm very alone currently and dont have anyone close enough to feel safe or to really talk to. I ache for connection and intimacy in any sense of the word.

I also run my own obsession/yan blog and sometimes my posts are more venty than fantasy due to that loneliness and aching creeping in pfft. I am more of the "darling" type but im also obsessive and yan leaning too.

A few weeks ago I wanted to sink my teeth into someone just cause I was feeling ravenous for connection ^^;;

But thanks for sharing. Even though it sucks either of us feel like this, its semi nice to know someone kinda gets it, yanno? Or maybe thats me being weird pfpft.

Anyways, take care 🩷

I don't think you're being very weird at all anon and that it's nice to see someone feel the same way as I in some way ^^

I hope this ache will be rewarded one day and our beloveds will appear in our lives and sweep us by the feet once they do. This loneliness can be debilitating and very painful but it will be worth it for our loves and for the hope of never having to feel this loneliness ever more. No more of that sadness and desire for intimacy creeping into your mind and instead the love of our future spouses and their desire for us answered.

Zero seconds since I've last thought about my future beloved.

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Zero seconds since I've kept my pillow close imagining it's them.

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Zero seconds since I've had tears streak down my face.

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Zero seconds since I've bled because of you.

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I feel every second that passes without you.

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Time always feeling like a cut for every reminder of itself.

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I wish I could forget it.

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To forget about time.

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To forget about the world.

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To forget my life.

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Forget about everything except you.

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Just hold you.

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Look at you.

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I don't care how much time passes as long as I get to spend eternity with you.

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Doing anything and everything together always and forever.

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For now I can only do that to the thought of you.

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Which unfortunately for now,

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isn't enough.

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Yet I will keep feeling the skin shred off my flesh with every second that passes,

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Because I'll keep waiting for you.

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For you to come out of hiding.

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I know that when the time is right,

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You'll be there next to me.

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A face I finally get to admire.

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