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sometimes, all you can do is breathe and wait for the storm in your chest to pass...

I was burning, while you came blaming me for the smell of ashes. -Fyodor Dostoevsky

This year felt like being awake during a surgery

"How do you read so many books??" I am simply trying to avoid reality, what are you doing

jacks never had a bad track. “Glad to know you’re thinking about me when you kiss your husband.” BANGER. “But for tonight, let me pretend you’re mine.” ICONIC. “I’d probably kill another man if I found him with you like this” LIFE CHANGING. “There is nothing of equal value to me”. UNMATCHED.

let’s go on a hike and fuck somewhere in the forest

i go to bed. i am consumed by overwhelming loneliness. i stare at the ceiling. i long for something i can’t name. i question if i’m real. i see a funny little meme on my phone and laugh hysterically for several minutes. i get too invested in an unrealistic fantasy. i pass out around three.