the blog where I put nsfw stuff

let’s just walk over to the old cedar shed here. i’ll slide the door open for you. smells like old wood shavings and iron in here, doesn't it? i've got a decent setup in the back here. bench, rack, some dumbbells.

sit down on the flat bench right there. grab those twenty-pound dumbbells. we're doing seated presses. i want you to feel your shoulders actually engage.

push 'em up. breathe out on the exertion. control the negative, don't just let it drop. good. two more. fight for it. come on, one more, lock it out.

okay, let me spot your elbows and guide those down to your knees. just breathe.

good. set 'em down on the mat. look at me. there's no shame in shaking, kid. you're early in your transition, and your body is still figuring out how to build and hold upper-body mass. right now, your blood is rushing into your shoulders and chest. that tight, swollen feeling? that's the pump. you're pushing blood into the tissue to stretch the fascia and encourage growth.

now, lean back against the bench. spread your legs out a bit.

i'm gonna grab something from the cabinet here. it’s a thick acrylic cylinder with a hand-trigger pump and a pressure gauge. i'm just going to set it right here on the bench next to your leg.

we're going to apply that exact same science to the rest of your body. i know you've been avoiding looking down there lately. i know the dysphoria hits hard when you feel like you aren't growing fast enough. but if we're going to build your body, you have to take ownership of it. all of it.

take your shorts off.

just push 'em down to your knees. i'll sit right here next to you.

this isn't a toy. it's a piece of anatomical equipment, and we're going to use it right. first rule: you have to look. chin down. look at yourself. no hiding from your own cock in this room.

here, hold the cylinder.

press the base of it right against your pelvis. angle it down a little to match your anatomy. get a perfect seal. i'll control the gauge.

i'm attaching the hose now. i'm going to slowly squeeze the trigger. you'll hear the air pulling out.

we are only taking this up to 5, maybe 7 inches of mercury. anything more than that is reckless force, and building tissue takes patience. feel that? feel the pull?

breathe through it. embrace the stretch. frame it in your mind exactly like the burn of those heavy dumbbells. your body is drawing blood down there, swelling the tissue, forcing it to expand.

i'm pausing the pump right at 5hg. look down at the clear acrylic. watch the way your body is visibly thickening, pulling forward, getting flushed and heavy under the vacuum.

look at that. look how your body responds when you command it to.

i'm pressing the release valve. letting the air back in. and i'm pulling the cylinder away.

now, this is the most important part of the lesson. touch it.

i'm going to guide your hand down.

feel that firmness? that's a healthy, solid erection under pressure. you need to check this every few minutes. tap the skin right there on the shaft. if you ever see the skin getting perfectly smooth and shiny, or if you tap it and it feels squishy like a water balloon, that's edema. lymphatic fluid. that means we stop immediately. we want raw muscle and blood flow, not swelling.

but right now? you feel solid. you're doing perfectly.

i'm placing the cylinder back over you. press it in again. i'm pumping the handle. we're taking it back up to five inches of mercury. you're going to sit here and let that pressure work. just breathe.

close your eyes for a second. i want you to picture what we're building toward. a year from now. you're not in this dusty shed anymore. you're walking into a real, commercial gym. a massive warehouse full of big, heavy guys moving serious iron. and you fit right in. your shoulders are broad, your back is thick from all the wood you've chopped and the plates you've pushed.

picture the heavy sweat on your chest. but more than that, picture what's in your shorts. you're wearing those thin gray gym pants, and because you put in the time sitting right here, doing exactly what i tell you, you've got a heavy, thick tdick swinging between your legs. every time you sit on a bench, every time you step up to a rack, you can feel the weight of it resting against you.

open your eyes. look down. look at what's happening inside that cylinder right now.

it's getting so incredibly thick. red and angry and hard. you're taking this pressure like a fucking champ, man. i can see the head of your cock pressing right up against the clear acrylic, begging for more room to expand.

i'm just going to reach out and just run my thumb over the outside of the tube, right where your dick is pressed against the plastic. look at how you twitch. look at how desperate your body is to grow, to be a real, undeniable man.