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another day with the boys today but i was so angry and sleep deprived i impulsively spewed some very bitter words towards them but i apologized sometimes i forget how much i love them we sat by this makeshift pier by a lake and shot spit at lilypads and then we opened umbrellas and sat in the rain regardless pants wet back of the shirt wet we spoke of uncertain deaths and deathly encounters me and M spoke about Necro Butcher vs. Samoa Joe in Philadelphia as P went to get coffee for us i smoked and drank coffee we had our friend Sohams photo opened on my phone and we kept the phone on a fourth chair he lives in a different city alone P caught Pokémons from his seat as me and M spoke some more we walked around the huge park and chatted about this and that and made filthy jokes we played game of Guess The Cartoon in the airconditioned bus that froze my wet clothes i chose Bubbles they chose Leanbow collectively then i chose Spawn they chose Silver Surfer we had cheeseburgers i punched mine with a cigarette everything was wet and i wanted to lay down so we parted ways and i came back home listening to Patch + under the spray of rain thank god i went out.

goddamn miss thatcher i am sorry.

erwin wurm