Cassie’s Blog

𝚆𝚎𝚕𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚐. 𝙷𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝙸 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚜𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚊𝚢𝚜, 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠𝚜, 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚠𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚘𝚖 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚜. 𝙸 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚘 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚓𝚘𝚢 𝚠𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚒𝚌𝚕𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚙𝚞𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚖𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚠𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚍 𝚙𝚊𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚜. 𝙸𝚝’𝚜 𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚒𝚋𝚕𝚢 𝚏𝚞𝚕𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐. 𝚂𝚘 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝙸 𝚊𝚖, 𝚝𝚛𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚜𝚙𝚊𝚌𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚖𝚢𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏.

𝙳𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚝, 𝙲𝚊𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚎.

I had never known true salvation until I met him. Never knew how true and carnal love felt until he held me in his arms.

The cage he placed me in gave me peace, he drew the boundaries for me. The worry of the state of my purity vanished.

He could tell me, show me how to cleanse myself. All of my life I've been haunted by the uncertainty of my fate.

I didn’t know if I was doing the right thing, but with him I never have to worry. I’ll always know.

Most of the time I dwell on what my life would have been like without Bipolar, but I don’t think I’d be as interesting. I’m not saying mental illness makes you interesting inherently but in my case it made me think much deeper about life at a young age.

Without my deep and sorrowful knowledge of my mortality I would have never spent the time to understand the world around me and who I was in relation to it.

And I think that’s a beautiful takeaway from something that is so tragic.