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Warn your sixteen your old self Warn her that a year from now she might be asking the love of her life how his new girlfriend is Warn her not to wash her hair everyday because it dries out the ends Warn her not to mix her drinks because she always gets sick from that Warn her not to go to bed with makeup all over her face, it’s not good for her skin Warn her not to go to bed crying, her head will hurt in the morning Warn her to be more in love with her best friend than with her boyfriend Warn her to love her mom the most Warn her to be nice to her little brother Warn her to be sweet but not too sweet Warn her to be sweet but tough, something that tastes good in your mouth but can break your goddamn teeth Warn her to visit her grandma even though she hates the long car ride Warn her to take pictures, especially of herself because one day she’ll think she’s beautiful Warn her to embrace her body (even her legs) she doesn’t have to love it but she does have to accept it Warn her to cry her heart out and use the tears to grow a new one

so here it is. i loved him, yes. but loving him made me kind of hate myself. and that wasn’t good.