welcome to hell! welcome to hell!

once you get used to not being alone all the time its really miserable to fall back into constant isolation it turns out

sorry i dont really post much here but whenever i need to vent or have a thought i just save it as a draft & then im too embarrassed to post it later

today has been pretty terrible but i feel ok now

i just replied to a fb message i got over a year ago from someone i hadnt spoken to in like 7 years & i feel like im gonna die?

i found out thru a friend that its my birthday lmao

someone yelled at me today & i didnt cry

i went to make some coffee but i forgot to add the coffee grounds so ive just brewed a pot of hot water

keysmashing is the only way i can communicate anymore & its ruining my life

i hate thinking about how social i used to be bc its such a. stark contrast now & its depressing? i was so talkative and like. at this point i cant imagine ever having been like that

really anxious & scared lately for no discernible reason

i often find myself thinking “nothing will ever surprise me again” and at Least biweekly i am proven horribly wrong,

me @ myself whenever i speak: bad post op

i had all of mjy wisdom teeth removed a week ago & ive been watching Friends exclusively ever since