Diary on Display

Is it okay to be sad with no reason? To feel down without cause? To desire to go home when you already are?

“What’s wrong?”

People used to think I cut myself for attention… No, I could care less if you see. It’s for me. So I feel on the outside the same that I do on the inside.

You must think I’m stupid darling, all the little games you play.

You are like a drug to me. Every time I get a little I want more.

Why do you keep doing this to me heart? He leaves and you get sad. He pulls you back in and you get happy. You fall for it every single time. You know you’re being used. So why? Why keep beating for a heart that will never beat back for you? Why give out your love for scraps in return?

Have you ever had such an intense desire to be loved that it feels like it is eating you up inside? Someone who chooses you and would choose you again and again. Someone that makes you feel like you’re a dancing flame that the world can’t put out.

PSA: Do NOT stop taking your meds.