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CHASE INFINITI ATEEZ 'Bad' Official MV

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Kittie - Spit

hart peppers sweet kisses to peyton's cheeks, the salt of the other's tears making his own chest ache. whatever is going on in peyton's mind - - hart wants to heal it ; wants to bring him peace. but, he can't deny the terror that vibrates in his body - - what if peyton is confessing that it all meant nothing? and that hart should move on? with the gentle compliments, hart finds himself steadied ( even just slightly ), but enough to where he doesn't feel like he's about to lose his world. and then - - hart's life changes with three little words. time stops and everything falls into place. every night spent in fear, every wound carved into his heart, every deep-rooted insecurity had been worth it. it had all led him to peyton. the journey had been hell, but somehow, it had brought hart heaven. jaw falls slack, in complete surprise. he could've never predicted this ( despite how many times he'd dreamt of it ). stars twinkle in blue eyes and a giddy, loopy smile tugs on hart's lips. yes, he's terrified - - scared that peyton will see what his father sees, that peyton will see what everyone in hart's past saw ( or didn't see ). he's never measured up and what if he doesn't measure up for peyton? - - the only person he's ever loved ( and will ever love ). quickly realizes peyton's spiraled into believing that hart doesn't feel the same and hart simply cannot have that. kisses are pressed to peyton's eyelids and then to his neck as tears stream down hart's cheeks - - doesn't know where his end and where peyton's begin. "pey…baby," hums as he nudges his nose against the other's, "i've loved you since the moment i laid eyes on you…my love for you grows more and more every single day and…" a soft sob falls from his lips, but he's sure to keep eye contact with peyton, "i'm in love with you. i've been yours. i only want to be yours." forehead presses against peyton's once more, water dripping down on their bodies. "god, i love you…i never thought you'd feel the same." lips crash into peyton's - - sensual, but slow and full of affection. "you have me completely, peyton rhee."

it's so hard for peyton to maintain eye contact with hart when he feels like everything is slipping through his fingers. the tears in his eyes only make matters worse; he feels pathetic. there's a gasp that leaves him when hart begins to kiss him again before he gets lost in the feeling of them being so close. the fact that he's still calling him baby makes the butterflies in his stomach erupt for the umpteenth time in an hour. he can't believe this is happening. the confessions that leave hart's lips stun him yet again, a whimper from his own lips mirroring hart's cry. his shaky hand reaches up to tangle in hart's damp curls, sniffling softly as their eyes connect. everything suddenly feels so right, like he couldn't breathe until this very moment. "hart," he can barely get any words out before the blonde's lips are on his again, but he doesn't mind. he's whimpering into the kiss, trying to pour what he feels directly into hart's plump lips. "how could i not feel the same? you're everything to me." he means it with his entire being, leaning back in to press sweet kisses to wherever he can. his free hand trails down and rests over the blonde's hart, feeling the rapid beat under his skin. "i love you so much. i want to... be with you." the water is still hitting them, but the warmth feels good. "and i want to take care of you, okay? i want you to know that i will." he's never been good with words, but he needs his best friend to know that he intends on never letting him go; never wants to leave him wondering if he's loved or not. he knows him, fully. "i'll take care of you forever."