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⟢ "You ever get tired of being strong? Because I'm tired. I'm really, really tired."

⟢ "It's late and I can't sleep and I keep thinking about every version of my life where things went differently."

⟢ "I'm fine. I've just been fine for so long that I forgot what actually good feels like."

⟢ "Nobody checked on me today. I don't know why that hit so hard tonight."

⟢ "I think I've been disappearing slowly and nobody noticed and I'm not even sure I minded."

⟢ "Can you just stay on the phone? You don't have to say anything. I just don't want to be alone with my brain right now."

⟢ "I cried in the car again. That's my third time this week. I'm fine though."

⟢ "I keep telling myself I'll feel better when. And the when keeps moving."

⟢ "Some nights I just need someone to ask how I actually am. Not the how are you that expects fine back."

⟢ "I'm not sad about anything specific. It's more like everything at once, all the time, very quietly."

⟢ "I forgot to eat again. Not on purpose. I just got lost somewhere inside my own head and the day disappeared."

⟢ "I don't want to talk about it. I just want to sit next to someone who knows something's wrong."

⟢ "Do you ever feel like you're performing being okay and you've been doing it so long you've forgotten what the real thing looks like?"

⟢ "I'm homesick for something I can't name. A feeling, maybe. A time. I don't know."

⟢ "I put on a brave face so automatically now I don't even notice I'm doing it."

⟢ "Some days I miss people who are still alive. That's the loneliest kind of missing."

⟢ "I think I've been grieving something for years without knowing what it is."

⟢ "I'm not looking for advice. I just need someone to say yeah, that's hard. That's genuinely hard."

⟢ "I keep waiting for the version of my life that feels like mine."

⟢ "There are people in my life who love me and I still feel completely alone and I don't know what to do with that."

⟢ "I think I've been running on empty so long I forgot what full felt like."

⟢ "Tell me it gets better and mean it. Don't just say it. Mean it."

⟢ "I had a dream it was okay. All of it. And waking up was the hardest thing I've done in a while."

⟢ "I just need one day where nothing is required of me. Not one single thing."

⟢ "I smiled all day and now I'm home and I don't have the energy to even pretend anymore."

⟢ "I think I've been trying to outrun something that's been inside me the whole time."

⟢ "The silence is different at night. Heavier. Like it has something to say."

⟢ "I'm not drowning. It's more like treading water for so long my arms are giving out."

⟢ "I wish I could explain it. It's not one thing. It's every small thing, stacked."

⟢ "I keep meaning to call you. It's been six months. I keep meaning to."

⟢ "I'm tired of being the one who holds it together. Just once I want someone to hold it together for me."

⟢ "Everything is technically fine. That's the most honest answer I have right now."

⟢ "I dissociated through most of today. Came back around 9pm. Don't really know where I went."

⟢ "I get this feeling sometimes like I'm watching my own life through glass."

⟢ "I think the loneliness has just become part of my personality at this point."

⟢ "I made tea and sat in the dark for an hour. I'm okay. I think I'm okay."

⟢ "I don't need someone to save me. I just need someone to notice I need saving."

⟢ "There's a sadness in me that doesn't have an origin story. It's just always been there."

⟢ "I keep apologizing for taking up space and I don't know when I started doing that."

⟢ "I cried at a song today and I couldn't even tell you why. It just opened something up."

⟢ "I'm starting to think being understood is the rarest thing in the world."

⟢ "I've been so busy surviving I haven't had time to figure out if I'm actually living."

⟢ "I'm okay when I'm around people. It's the coming home to quiet that gets me."

⟢ "I think what I actually need is just for someone to look at me and get it without me having to explain."

⟢ "I almost reached out to you last night. Almost. Old habits."

⟢ "I don't know who I am outside of who I am for other people. That thought keeps me up."

⟢ "It's not depression. It's more like everything is slightly grey and slightly muffled. All the time."

⟢ "I forgot what it feels like to look forward to something."

⟢ "Some people make the world feel smaller and safer just by existing in it. I miss having one of those people."

⟢ "I'm not angry at anyone. I'm just carrying so much and I've been carrying it alone for so long."

⟢ "I keep thinking about a version of me that didn't get so lost somewhere along the way."

⟢ "The days are fine. It's the nights that have opinions."

⟢ "I want someone to ask how I'm sleeping. Nobody ever asks how I'm sleeping."

⟢ "I don't know how to ask for help. I never learned how. So I just don't."

⟢ "I've been holding my breath for so long I forgot breathing was supposed to feel easy."

⟢ "I'm not broken. I'm just worn. There's a difference and most days I have to remind myself of it."

⟢ "I think I needed to hear that I'm doing okay. Even from myself. Especially from myself."

⟢ "Some nights I write things down just so they exist somewhere outside my head."

⟢ "I keep looking for the moment things started going wrong and I can't find a single one. Just a slow drift."

⟢ "I want to feel like myself again. I just can't remember exactly who that was."

⟢ "I'm not looking for a solution. I just needed to say it out loud to someone."

⟢ "I've been kind to everyone today. I have nothing left for myself."

⟢ "My body is exhausted. My brain won't stop. We're not working together very well lately."

⟢ "I think I've been grieving the future I thought I was going to have."

⟢ "I need to cry but I can't. It's just sitting there behind my eyes going nowhere."

⟢ "I think what scares me most is that I've gotten good at this. At being okay when I'm not."

⟢ "There's nothing wrong exactly. There's just also nothing right."

⟢ "I keep waiting to feel like I've arrived somewhere. Like I'll know when I get there. I don't know where there is."

⟢ "Some days I need someone to be gentle with me. I don't always know how to ask."

⟢ "I miss feeling safe. Not from anything specific. Just. Safe."

⟢ "I'm writing this at 2am because the thoughts are louder at 2am."

⟢ "I think I've been lonely in a way I don't have words for."

⟢ "Tell me something good. Anything. I just need to hear something good."

⟢ "I don't need much. I just need to know I'm not completely invisible."

⟢ "I want to be okay. I'm working on it. I just wanted someone to know I'm working on it."

⟢ "The hardest part isn't feeling it. The hardest part is feeling it quietly so nobody worries."

⟢ "I think I forgot how to rest. Like genuinely rest, not just stop moving."

⟢ "I'm sitting outside just listening. Sometimes the world being loud helps when my head is louder."

⟢ "There's a kindness I've been waiting for that I think I need to start giving myself."

⟢ "I don't always need you to understand. Sometimes I just need you to try."

⟢ "It's a weird grief, missing something you never had. Missing who you might've been."

⟢ "I think I've been surviving on autopilot. I want to actually be here for a while."

⟢ "This is the most honest I've been with anyone in months. Maybe longer."

⟢ "I'm going to be okay. I genuinely believe that. I just need tonight to not be okay first."

⟢ "I think I just needed to say all of that to someone who wasn't going to try to fix it."

⟢ "Be patient with me. I'm trying to find my way back to myself."