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but yeah i just like vash the stampede and wolfwood hold hands and kiss everyday i think about this. i like them

im always worried that i cant fully grasp and analyze and therefore fully comprehend and appreciate something i dont have any technical knowhow in because some aspects of the process itself of creating the thing im analyzing make itself part of the meaning or direct the narrative. basically just feel like i dont know anything about music theory so i cant pick apart music in the method i like to analyze stuff and i dont know anything about the technical processes or production phase of filmmaking so i cant meet an analysis of a movie at its level. does this make any sense at all? ive always kinda felt like the shit im saying sounds like a foreign language to other people but the past couple months especially i feel like the fog in my brain has fully isolated me from the rest of the world and the words coming out of my mouth are seperate from my thoughts but idk i just feel like people look at me funny when i talk more often than they used to. but that could just be paranoia too cayse i constantly see people coming towards me in my peripheral vision and it gives me a five nights at freddy jumpscare but when i turn to look nobody is there its kinda been driving me crazy and also when my heads foggy i cant shake the feeling that someones gonna kill me or hurt me no matter how many times i try to explain to myself that thats not rational or realistic and i should KNOW its not but that half of my brain is just fully convinced im gonna die

my favorite type of bad game is passion projects from a gamedev with no experience making games and wants to put all of their favorite stuff in one single game. affectionately, i smile hugely.

the thing about "i played the worst rated games on gaming platform!" type videos is that once youve seen one of those vids youve pretty much seen em all. theres like three types of bad scam game that fill the bottom of the barrel and its boring to watch once you recognize the pattern

some1 needs to take one for the team and give shame dauson the sharlie kork treatment

saw someones badge on a post and made a joke to myself like haha so theyre offering badges in cuneiform now but then i checked the badge name and thats actually what it was

so glad nothing of note has happened today

whats a good job for someone with no degree and too fucking stupid to learn anything and too slow for labor work and has debilitating anxiety that literally prevents him from being able to function in a fast paced customer service job. or should i just kill myself

do love seeing people i dont like experiencing misery. even though im also currently experiencing misery. we can point and laugh at each other that can be our single point of mutuality