Lost inside my head

I kinda hope I’m living in an simulation that’s about how much a single person can take bevor this person breaks and commits suicide

I made my brother cry today with telling him how messed up my head is and and how miserable I am. So tell me how is this supposed to help when everyone ist saying talk to someone it’s gonna help

Please let me die in my sleep tonight

I don’t want a 25th birthday

I’ve reached a new all time low

I just can't stop destroying things.. why am I like this?.. why am I so stupid..

Aaaaand welcome back to the shit show called: "my life"

I made a lot of wrong decisions and fought for the wrong people. Now i have to live with it

I didn't make it.. i stayed clean for 1 1/2 years.. but i couldn't stay away from it.. i failed myself..

I got money and everything else I need. I should be happy.. but I'm not.. I still feel alone.. Cause all the material things in the world can't give you the feeling what a single person who truly loves you can give you..

Everytime when i think i can trust someone i get replaced by the first chance they get. So yeah, i think I'm better off alone. I think that's just what I'm supposed to be.. I'm not even someones second or third choice.. I'm just someone people spend their time with when they got nothing better to do