Datenshi

April 11th, 2026

English translation

Manhua: 19 days

Author: Old Xian

Chapter: 486 "Negotiation"

« Negotiation »

more under the cut, it's a long one!

Saezuru chapter 64 ❗❗

The kiss !! The kiss !! THE KIIISS 😩

Like y'all don't get it they never kissed like this before !! Just a kiss just a kiss 😭 just to transmit all the love all the tenderness all the yearning...

Why does it feel like a goodbye kiss tho 😳😫

Translation

Cover page- 

"I've wanted to do this all along."

Manga page- 

Yashiro: "Stand up."

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The illustration on the cover page has me sobbing ahhhh 😭😭😭😭♥️♥️

After the page from the second preview where doumeki collapses while trying to stand up

• Doumeki: "…S-sorry…"

• Yashiro: "It's fine. Don’t talk."

• Saying that, Yashiro puts Doumeki's arm around his shoulder and carries him to the bed

• Doumeki grabs Yashiro’s arm and says, "Don't go…" and then loses consciousness

• Yashiro prepares a towel for Doumeki's forehead and some water, and stays to nurse him

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• Doumeki wakes up

• When he sits up, he sees Yashiro sleeping while seated against the wall

• Doumeki moves closer, notices the bucket of water nearby, and understands what happened.

• As he looks at Yashiro’s sleeping face, he recalls Kageyama's words and reaches out-

• but just then, his phone rings.

• The ringtone wakes Yashiro.

• Tsunakawa: "It's me."

• Doumeki: "…Yes."

• Tsunakawa: "Come to the main house. Now."

• Doumeki: "Understood."

• Yashiro looks up at Doumeki, who has lowered his gaze

• Yashiro asks if it was Tsunakawa calling

• Doumeki asks what Yashiro had originally come for

• Yashiro dodges the question

"What was it again?"

• He pretends he’s forgotten

• Yashiro then asks whether it was really okay to send the club mama who people think Doumeki is involved with home.

• Doumeki: "When did I ever say I was dating her?"

• Yashiro: "…You're not?"

• Doumeki’s wound starts to hurt, so he sits down and explains

 • The club mama is his childhood friend

• He was her tattoo practice model

• She was saving money at the club so she could become independent as a tattoo artist

• Yashiro: "I… see."

• Doumeki: "Would it have been more convenient if we were dating?"

• Yashiro: "…What do you mean by that?"

• Doumeki: "I wondered if that would make you feel more at ease."

• Yashiro: "At ease…? What are you talking about?"

• Doumeki: "Do you really not understand?"

• Yashiro: "It doesn’t matter to me either way. I don’t care who you’re dating as long as I can have sex, It doesn’t even have to be you"

• Doumeki: "I-"

(the scene shown in the first official preview.)

• Doumeki: "What if I told you that… I still have feelings for you?"

• Doumeki: "Do you want to know how I feel?"

"If I said I still love you, if you knew I’m still chasing after you"

• Doumeki: "Even so, do you still want to hear it from my own mouth?"

"Do you truly believe I could ever love anyone other than you?" (😭😭♥️) 

• They look at each other at the same eye level.

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Doumeki’s past

"Because you were there, I chose to live in this world."

"It didn’t matter which organization it was."

"I didn’t care if people thought I was disloyal or a terrible person."

"I decided I just wanted to exist in the same world as you any way I could."

"I wanted to become a man who could stand beside you."

"I didn’t care how many years it took."

"But I met you sooner than I expected, and I became greedy. I got jealous."

"I thought I had let those feelings go-" "but I couldn’t go against my own heart."

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Back to the present

• Doumeki reaches out and touches Yashiro’s right cheek

• Doumeki: "Can you not see?"

• Yashiro: "…Why?"

• Doumeki: "Is it a lingering effect from back then?"

• Yashiro: "It's nothing serious."

• Doumeki: "Is it because of me?"

• Yashiro: "No."

• Yashiro grabs Doumeki’s wrist.

• Doumeki: "Even if it isn't…"

• Yashiro: "You’re overthinking it."

• Doumeki: "…Even so, to me, you are kind, strong, and beautiful."

• Yashiro: "…I-"

• Yashiro: "All this time, you’ve been making me listen to this"

"what kind of feelings did you expect me to hear it with…?"

• Doumeki leans in and kisses him.

• They part.

• Yashiro opens his eyes, stunned

• Doumeki stands up

• Yashiro: "You… why… why say it now?"

 "You hid it all this time"

 "why now?"

• Doumeki looks down at him silently,

• He takes his jacket and leaves

• Doumeki’s face turns serious

• Yashiro stares at the door.

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Of course! Thanks for asking. These are in no particular order but I’ve gone for 3 manga/manhwa/danmei/anime.

Manga

1 - Saezuru

I actually think this was the second bl manga I ever read and omg I love it so much. You’ll probably see a theme that I’m attracted to darker/grittier subject matter. I feel like the smut is earned in this one and as someone who likes the smut to be a payoff. It’s good times.

2 - Kobi no Kyojin/Bi no Isu

Honestly, Nirasawa is unhinged and I love that for him. I had a massive thing for yakuza settings when I first got into bl and this one has always stood out in my memory. Probably because of Ike Reibun’s art style.

3 - Ten Count

It’s a little bit toxic and it’s a little bit sad. One of the few bl manga I have re-read. It’s probably not aged well but I did follow it for a chunk of time as it was publishing.

Manhwa

4 - Dark Heaven

Baby’s first manhwa was about a drug addled rockstar and his interracial relationship with his guitarist who was attacked in a hate crime and then tried to play it safe. Fairly certain there’s religious zealots in this one too!

I adored this manhwa when it was coming out and people definitely slept on it. Also it has a verse couple which I know is a thing people ask for.

5 - Steel Under Silk

Kwon Hee-ryang did nothing wrong in his whole life ever! It’s a toxic power play and I will eat that shit up every time! Sparked my Joseon era obsession which is absolutely never going away.

6 - The Ghost’s Nocturne

The art is stunning! It’s the first uncensored manhwa I ever read. It’s sad, it’s magical, it’s vibes! I’m ridiculously excited for the next season.

Danmei

7 - The Husky and his White Cat Shizun

Love of my danmei life 💗 Meatbun can do no wrong with this one - Mo Ran/Taxian-jun is one of my all time favourite characters. Chu Wanning is me! It’s both toxic and hilarious. The fluffy eras are fun but when it gets unhinged is when Meatbun truly shines imo.

8 - Case File Compendium

Meatbun turned the unhinged antics up to 1000 here and I eat it up every single volume. It’s sort of giving modern au 2ha except with slightly enhanced characters. He Yu is a theatre kid and Xie Qingcheng is so repressed. Watching these two pretend to be straight is peak comedy. But it also gets super sad because of course it does. Meatbun is a fellow angst whore.

9 - Sa Ye

This was literally such a surprise to me but it’s the best slice of life I think I’ve ever read. It’s so melancholic and watching everyone’s relationships develop is just the best. Jiang Cheng is top tier danmei sad boy.

Anime/Donghua

10 - Banana Fish

I’m cheating because this is technically a shojo but if you don’t think Ash and Eiji are in love you’re watching it wrong. Also bl anime in general is pretty mid so…

Fun fact - I was so obsessed with this anime when I was watching it the first time, I watched a whole episode drunk as a skunk in Japanese. Iconic.

11 - Ai No Kusabi

I hate sci-fi but I LOVE Ai no Kusabi. I’ve watched it so many times and I’m still really sad we didn’t get the 12 episodes from the 2012 remake. It’s just vibes. The smut scenes are weirdly drawn but I don’t even care it’s peak nostalgia.

That it inspired Captive Prince just makes the whole thing even better.

12 - MDZS (Donghua)

I’m cheating again because like I said I’ve seen a lot of bl anime but it’s never that good. However I was OBSESSED with mdzs when I watched it. The OP was banger, the voice acting was banger and the grafting that was going on to get things around censorship was on point.

• The opening is that monologue page of Yashiro looking up the one the official account posted.

• On page 2, the official account only posted the top panel, but below that, there was Yashiro saying: "Is there anything scarier than that?"

• Then there’s a knock on the door.

• A subordinate tells him that Misumi is here.

• Yashiro answers reluctantly

• Misumi was worried about Yashiro being at the shooting scene and he also knew Doumeki had acted as Yashiro’s shield

• Yashiro: "Where do you even hear this stuff?"

• Misumi: "Don’t underestimate my information network."

• Misumi says Doumeki is clearly obsessed with Yashiro and asks Yashiro if he has any intention of accepting Doumeki.

• Yashiro: "I’ve never even thought about it." (smh) 

• Misumi: "I see… good."

• Then Misumi mentions that because Doumeki acted as Yashiro’s shield, it completely ruined Tsunakawa’s pride, and no one knows how Tsunakawa will deal with Doumeki. So Misumi orders Yashiro, more than just "advises" to keep away from Doumeki. 

• And Misumi didn’t come only to talk about Doumeki. They talk about Yakuza stuff

• Basically, Misumi wants Yashiro to do as he pleases as long as he also catches Kai while he’s retrieving the gun, creating a debt and also shutting up the higher-ups who hate Yashiro.

• After Misumi leaves, Yashiro thinks: "He’s totally keeping me like a pet. 'Right-hand man' my ass."

• Then Yashiro gets a call from Nanahara.

• Nanahara ran into Doumeki being carried in (with a high fever) when he went to bring payment to Dr. Kageyama. (What happened after the end of the last chapter) 

• He also tells Yashiro that Kamiya and the others found Kai’s location.

•Yashiro asks if Doumeki is still with Kageyama, but Nanahara says Doumeki was sent home.

• Nanahara: "What should we do? We gotta find the gun before Sakura starts a shootout."

• Yashiro: "I know. I’ll go poke around."

• Nanahara: "Got it."

• Yashiro: "Just poke around. That’s all."

• Scene changes to Doumeki’s apartment hallway.

• Kamiya is carrying Doumeki.

• And then the club Mama appears…!

• She helps Kamiya support Doumeki.

• Kamiya: "Nothing in this room, huh? You come here often?"

• Mama: "…No."

• Kamiya: "Surprising. I thought you two were dating."

• Mama: "…"

• While Kamiya is explaining what Doumeki did (using his body to shield Yashiro), Yashiro is standing right at Doumeki’s door

• Kamiya: "But yeah, it makes no sense. Even if they’re old acquaintances..."

• Doorbell rings.

• Yashiro is standing there. Mama turns to look at him.

• Kamiya asks if Yashiro came to check on Doumeki. Yashiro says he heard Doumeki had a fever. Mama watches them talk. Doumeki wakes up

• Just when Yashiro is about to leave, 

• Mama: "Um, if you’d like..."

• But Doumeki suddenly gets up, passes by Mama, grabs Yashiro’s arm and

• Doumeki: "Please… wait… don’t… go…"

• He can’t stand, so he drops to one knee 😭

• Kamiya: "What the hell, man? Just go lie down."

• Mama: "Kamiya-san, let’s go."

• She grabs Kamiya and drags him out, passing Yashiro.

• We get a panel of Yashiro looking at Doumeki, and Doumeki suffering from the fever

In the car:

• Kamiya: "You sure it’s okay? Leaving your man while he’s weak?"

• Mama: "It’s fine. It was a lie." (OMGGG!!!!) 

• Kamiya: "Wait, so you weren’t visiting his place all the time?"

• Mama: "Not like that."

• Kamiya: "…Why lie, then?"

• Mama: "…It was just more convenient that way."

• A panel of Mama tattooing Doumeki’s back (I KNEW it) 

• Mama: "He has someone else he cares about. I kind of knew."

• She then says she wants to do something else with her life, so she’ll close the shop.

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Omfg. SO MUCH happened this chapter.

When Misumi asks:

"Do you have any intention of accepting him?"

And Yashiro says:

"I’ve never even thought about it."

💀 LIE.

Huge lie.

Misumi’s "Good" is chilling.

He’s relieved. 100% because Yashiro having attachments threatens his usefulness.

"He’s totally keeping me like a pet."

This is such a raw line. Dark underneath. Yashiro recognizing he’s being handled like property.

Doumeki grabbing Yashiro’s arm while collapsing to one knee. Begging him to not go, is the most openly desperate Doumeki has EVER been. Especially after the time skip.

It’s pure attachment.

Pure fear of abandonment.

Pure "don’t leave me again."

This scene is the emotional core of the chapter.

Misumi ➡️ keeps him like a pet

Doumeki ➡️ collapses begging him not to go

Mama ➡️ quietly steps aside

Everyone is reacting emotionally.

Yashiro is the only one publicly pretending not to feel anything.

The ✨drama✨ is ✨drama-ing✨ fr this chapter.

Misumi need to fuck off (always hated this old hag)

So so many thoughts...