We are...
I still can't believe it, rather we can't believe it. Noah keeps watching the test over and over again. Those who read my blog know that I had failed pregnancies before, even if it was not with Noah. That made me not want to think about having babies for now (although inside me, but deep inside ... I melted seeing everyone and their little ones). So I understood that what I had was fear, that I would not be able to have children with Noah, that history would repeat itself. He told me many times that it was not a problem that if it did not work we would keep trying but I know that none of that is simple and that little by little it will consume us ... So we just let it pass and we started to enjoy the time together. But we both wanted to be parents, I just wasn't brave enough to take that path again.
Noah has always been super sweet with children, it is one of the things that attracts me the most to him. I always thought he would be an amazing dad. So I decided to talk to him and let him know about my decision to avoid pregnancy a few months ago, I'm not going to lie to you I was worried because it took a long time and I felt that Noah was waiting for this as much as I or even longer than I was. . So one day we talked and he calmed me down. He told me that he won't worry me about anything. As he always tells me, everything will be fine ... and that's how we got to this unforgettable day.
I had been feeling really bad for days. Everything was in the morning I thought I could be pregnant but after 11 am I felt fine. So without saying anything I went to the grocery store near home and bought a test, it came out positive. I could not believe it, but then my disbelief did not allow me to celebrate it as I deserved it again I mounted my bike full of tears that fell as I passed, I was shaking I was so nervous that I bought five more tests ... All positive guys! I ran around the house, shouted, cried, prayed. He dies to see Noah's face when I tell him, but it was barely 11 in the morning and he returned at 6 pm from work. Then it occurred to me to have a picnic ...
That day I told Noah to go have a picnic. I was so nervous that I couldn't prepare almost anything, I grabbed the first thing I found and we went to that incredible little place ... I don't know how I did so that Noah didn't see the blackboard among the things, I tried to hide it but obviously Noah felt that something was happening So I kept asking myself and I was even more nervous ... I don't know how I managed to hide it.
Just when he turned to see, he was shocked, and I couldn't stop crying. I asked him if he had told me about everything and he said no, that he believed that he had cooked his favorite food (And I thought I was very obvious). Guys, we cry for hours and hours. At night he kept looking at the blackboard with the sonograms, we are so happy. I feel like I'm dreaming, Noah is already talking to him even though I repeat that it is very early, which leads me to remember the miscarriages I had before ...
