Just let me fade into the breeze

Your heart is heavy

as you warily

sink into a singularity,

searching for your clarity

in this life's sadistic parody.

You've been here before

in your last great war;

many can probably relate

to escape

before it's too late.

Even though it seems impossible,

what doesn't sound plausible—

is it even cognoscible?

A reaction

so volatile.

A torn sail,

to no avail,

can be sewn

and be flown.

You're the one who must rise,

for you may capsize

and sink beneath a dark sky

where you will atomize.

All that's left is radiating;

the gravity begins deviating

as you slip free

from its embrace

into the emptiness of space.

Navigate the sea

With a sense of dignity

Come high waters

Come low tide

The waves I still ride

Oceans of rage

Oceans of calm

Doesn't matter, I sail on

Subconscious, meets concious

Like fresh water merges with salt

Brackish lines drawn

Currents formed

As new rivers of thought are born

I've traveled through storms

With no light keeper in his tower

To lead us home

I'm at the mercy of the oceans power

Yet here I stand

The captain of a vessel

That could find greatness

If he filled the emptiness

With his travels

If I navigated the waves

If I could withstand the breaks

Of the curling rage

In these towers of pain

Crashing down on my vessel

The SS Regain.

What kind of a pain

Must a person beget

Makes a person forget

Who they are.

What kind of a rain

Must a sky unleash

to wash it away,

A decade

of clay.

Caked around your eyes

Are the walls of your age

Send the mighty flood

So you see yourself again

Before it's too late.

The answers lie in the scars

On the walls of your heart

Nights spent tearing wallpaper

Lining the inside of your heart.

Peeling apart the layers

Yet all you still see are scars

You may never truly know

No matter how deep you go

Almost like you were never there

Maybe you forgot who you were

In a life not lived

But suffered.

What kind of pain

Makes a person forget who they are

What kind of rain

Must the sky unleash to wash away

A decade of clay

Caked over your eyes

So that you may see yourself again

The answer lies in these scars

Covering the walls of your heart

Nights spent tearing at wallpaper

Peeling apart the layers

Yet you still see the marks

No matter how deep you go

You'll never find your name was here

Like you were never there

You forgot who you were

In a life not lived

Like a lightbulb

Once bright in the dark

There was an overload

I began to flicker

Until my filament finally broke

You shook me around

Rattling me, my insides clamoring

Against the shell containing me

Hoping for a spark

Sometimes, I align

My desperate flame, flickering to life

Yet so suddenly bludgeoned me

Shattered to pieces

You crushed me to dust

Sweeping me away into the darkness

Destiny has written that I belong

Oh, how the grind is slow

Painfully so, we dig

We dig up, up from the underground

Beneath the mountains of your crime

Achingly, we hid

In the catacombs of your mind

Grinding, digging

Filling you with holes

You send your sheep

To stomp us out

But in the dark

She bares the torch.

They rained down upon us

Like moths to her flame

They descended like a flood

But she never waned

So we grind, and we dig

They've never seen something this big

Coming straight up

From the mountains they made.

Wave after wave

Burned in her flame

Like lost hopeless souls

Drawn to her beauty

To fuel her blaze

You tried to bury her

But we will carry her

Come hellfire or barbedwire

Her flame rose higher.

The ire in our eyes

The beating of stone

The mountain trembles

The stars stare back

Seemingly awaiting

For me to make my move

My world stopped spinning

Left me with a feeling

Everything was in place

The stars still stare

But I'm no longer there

Will it spin again?

So I can make these moves

To make the stars content

There's no telling

There's no talking

Wade out waste deep thinking

How the hoizons are green and blue

While the sun is sinking

Don't let the tide grip you.

You are safe where you stand

Wading a little bit deeper

Shuffling through the sand

As worry falls beneath the sleeper.

If those waves of inner anguish

Crashed above your head I'd grasp you tight

Holding off time and our languish

So this feeling can't win this fight.

Never drowning again, love will be swift

For we can swim

and we can be the ones to drift

Off the earths rim.

Hands knotted together in free fall

Would you look up or down

or no eyes open at all?

Such valor in this moving moment

As two began to fall into lovers

For we can swim

and we can be the ones to drift

Off the earths rim.

Hands knotted together in free fall

Would you look up or down

or no eyes open at all?

As we slipped off that endless frown.

Such valor in this moving moment

As two began to fall into lovers

Hearts that won't waver in atonement

In the coldest winters under the covers.

Hands Locking these hearts together

As age withered the fragile body

Ambitions that lasted forever

In hearts that time couldn't embody.

Colors of the sun that reflected

In the fire that they kept burning

Like and aurora of dancing sparks

lest one forgets about their own mortality

It's easy to think that one is unstoppable

if its the case that you live in a bubble.

Eyes like the hubble

Replaced by the webb

It's easy to see your intentions

for someone who has lived a life of dread.

Infectious? Try contagious, its outrageous

the number of bubbles

All begging to be popped

These tangents begging to be stopped.

Pop, pop, pop, pop

Please, sir, stop.

I won't. No, I won't until you drop

from thin air.

They say bad luck comes in threes

well, I think it comes in pairs

Am I splitting hairs?

Or are you just drawing squares?

Waldo, waldo, where, where?

He's right there, in your stare

You don't see him, you don't dare

Waldo's a metaphor for your arrogance.

Your desire for importance is vigorous

you think making your path rigorous

will cure you from your indifference

you're stuck in a web of your selfinterests.

Did you know trees talk to one another?

I bet you didn't

They speak of your bad deeds

in the bristling of their reids in a breeze.

I bet you didn't know your a dot

on an even smaller dot

in a dot with orbiting dots

amongst a sea of dots....

I bet you didn't; know anything of the dimensions?

that interweave between ours

how kings have tried to conquer them

no being has, but many have tried.

Since the dawn of time

Man has reached to the sky

To pray for a drop of life

to only find its guaranteed.

As a fish, swimming through experience

a fish; because we all come from the ocean

Time, plus the tides, the subtle errosion

It all comes full circle, in the end, you will exist again.

a fish has no choice but to swim

That is why we are just this fish metaphor

because we can't choose to exist on whim

it just happens, we just happen, it just so happens.

That you exist in a bubble, of thoughts, on a dot

on a larger pale blue dot

orbiting a yellow dot

in a sea of rainbow dots

everything is simply made of dots

which is all just

Stardust

Foundations to Happiness

Built on a void of sadness

Pulling the ground beneath my feet

Every day I replace the tiles with smiles

No amount of positivity i can speak

Will manifest a cure for the thoughts that make me weak

Oh, what I'd love to do to myself, to close my eyes

To destroy the void that plucks the stars from the sky

The days only recently started passing by

where you're not always on my mind

It feels like I've waited all my life

to be sparred a day of this emptiness

your absence left me with, constant emptiness

I see the sunsets now through their eyes

The sunrises rise with their lives

The fireworks light up their nights

So the sorrow pulls me less

the stress doesn't make me regress

but deep down you still pull the stars from the sky

they fall into my eyes, where my memory recedes

into the darkest of places where the terrors rise up

I want to cry sometimes, but I'm too afraid to open up

floodgates to my ocean, the waves crashing over

let the waters rollover, taking me out with the tide

The emptiness beyond these walls isn't so empty

the void under me has bent me all out of shape

I can look up and pray, but it doesn't help me escape

once i regress, i must confess, the struggle is beautiful

This chaos inside, destroying me, is so diffusible

but the wires are all black and blue from the bruises

from the abusers and all the users who have molded me

I don't want to die to these jubilees

I don't want to keep seeing this effigy

my whole life I've been learning to love myself

but in the mirror, I see the shape you made me

these demons you instilled in me, see me

they are the only ones who really know me

I wish I could be the person you want me to be

Words, dwindle like the ink in my pen

I'm losing myself once again

Feelings, the facade for the weary

To call upon when times get scary

up late on these sad lonely nights

Lost in the starry sky and in its dazzling lights

I reminisce of a life of chasing our dreams

complications, confrontations, accusations

are chasing me away, everyday

because love is scary, and my hearts grown weary

I've been going on too long with this facade

You've been going on about god

it's been the driving wedge that makes me wary

Traumatized by all these lifeless days

A little excitement goes a real long way

Fire, extinguished from these sullen veins

The cold rain, rains for days

Tis the season, I guess

Tis the reason, for some better days

Pain, stampeding through my beaten soul

because it doesn't want to grow old

Feelings are just a facade when you're weary

of these days that have grown so dreary

Words, their meanings begin to dwindle

when they're just spinning on spindle

You wove ice into these fiery threads

You'd claw through the flames

You made up in your head