My Mind

And just like that my demons finally took control of me and now it seems so much easier to dance with the devil. Maybe this is exactly what needed to happen.

It's 7:30 in the morning and I'm already done with today. I had to work from 10pm-6:30am this morning and I'm super exhausted and my sister is already pushing my buttons so of course when I snap at her I get in trouble. Fuck hanging out with my family. And my family wonders why I'm always on my phone and I never talk to them. I'm already pissed and I have been at my parents for 10 minutes. Fuck! It's going to be a long fucking day...

Totally bored someone should kik me! alexawyma123

And just like that I thought things would finally go my way but nope! Should have seen the signs that was saying it was to good to be true.

And at this moment I probably should be watched 24/7 because I just want to end my life. But that probably won’t happen and I’m okay with that. Every day is just slowly pushing me to that point and I have accepted that. I welcome death if anything.

And I finally feel lonely. The smile I have is fake. I'm still getting over what happened to me but I'm to the point where I think I'm ready for another relationship. These past six months I have learned a lot about myself and I know what I want. I want a man, not a boy. I want to take care of someone who takes care of me. I want a relationship where we both put 110% into it. I want someone to love me for me. I want to have someone whose demands play with mine. I want to be loved. I want to love. I've had my fun of being single and I'm over it. I'm over feeling lonely.