Toka Numora

My emotions are running high as of this morning. I was in my room on IMVU when someone came in talking about someone who’s caused me issues. They told me the person wanted to be friends if I were to put all the past issues strictly in the past. I can’t even believe this. How am I to do that when everyone has put me as the target of lies? If this is a serious offer, I want to hear it from the person themselves. They are temporarily unblocked. If you wish to state this, come to my room or pc me privately. The chat will be monitored and copied. If this is a sick joke, please don’t play with my emotions. You know I cared for you deeply and I honestly still do. But I won’t tolerate emotion play. If you are reading this, you know who you are.

I like to give people the benefit of the doubt sometimes. I also like to give them all one last chance to tell the truth about things everyone has lied about. So, how bout? Will thou try to tell everyone the truth? Or will the lies continue?

Found this on Devianart. Artist ZakraArt

It’s kinda weird, ya know. having a feeling you didn’t think you could have...for someone who’s caused issues that were so petty and unneeded. Its strange. To think you would have had something with them then to see it get thrown away. It’s curious. To know....that know...seeing how things are....dangerous, toxic, crazy.....that you wish you could see them once more. It’s......scary......to think you want that person around again but horrified they will take your loved one......It’s magical. To realize all you can do is dream about the past memories of their laughs and tears.....you wish you could hold them but only in your dream. It’s saddening....that you can’t have what you once had because everything has become so toxic that the air you breath is nothing but their anger and hate being spewed across the skies. It’s all so.....weird....now that we can never have our laughs together again.....to never see their face but only in a frame.....I miss you and I can’t even tell you cause you hate me so much. I wish things were different and we could move on.....but we can’t cause we are both toxic to each other.....I’m sorry this is how this all ends....cause....It’s Just So Weird Missing You...... 

I can’t wait

I’m not sure who made this but I really liked it

Things are in the midst of change. Some good, some bad. Its up to me to make the best choice for change.

My gemsona ^_^ Aquamarine

I have sever depression and anxiety....about three years ago I tried to overdose on sleeping meds, ADD meds, and alcohol.....I had a very tough life growing up. Family split at a young age, I was adopted and abused as a baby, grew up without a father, mother struggled to keep her three kids happy, my brothers left to be with my father, and I grew up being told I was never going to be good enough. I was compared to other children all the time. My step father liked to do that. He compared me to his children and made me feel like I was nothing. Sadly, my step father died on April 13,2015. I also had people who lived with me threatening to kill me (because I kicked them out for threatening me). I also had lost my job and was about to lose my home. I tried reaching out to a group on Facebook that I thought was a great group to help support people in need of a smile or hope. They ended up banning me from the group cause they said I was getting pity over stupid things. I felt like I had nothing. I have a few people reach out to me but I just didn't care. When I tried to over dose, I had a very close friend of mine break into my apartment. I was falling asleep from the sleeping meds I had in my system. She grabbed me and induced me to vomit. Then the ambulance arrived and took me to the hospital where my stomach was pumped the rest of the way to get the narcotics out. I thank my friend every day...She saved my life. I now have a happy life, a great boyfriend, and a business I started helping families save money to help them do things they couldn't ever do before. So, I know this was lengthy, but I urge people, please, don't try to take your life. You will miss the opportunity to make your life different or make a difference in someone else life. If you are going through some things, talk to someone. Please, seek help. Think about everyone who will be affected by your choice. Just know, you are loved, Somewhere in this world, someone does love you. You don't need to take your life. YOU ARE LOVED BY GOD! I bless everyone who takes the time to read this. God does love you. Thank you for reading.