Omigosh

(Please take some time to read this, it’s important to me. There isn’t much writing it’s mostly screenshots)

I have seen barely any posts about Steven’s mental health. You’re all racking up his anger to ‘being a teenager’ but that’s so clearly not the case. Here is a couple of screen shots and quotes for evidence:

“You’ve always been a fusion, you’ve always had your friends! You are NOTHING without them” in the full clip of this, you can just see face drop when she says that. So many times he’s been almost killed and had a gem yell at him in his face about him being worthless, this is probably a trigger for him hence why he started crying and—

— turns pink. Also him snapping and turning violent, he never wants to feel helpless like he always has to when a gem tries to kill him. He’s been through it so much. And even after HE apologises when he didn’t need to. PTSD triggers like this that send you into a rage makes you feel like a awful, awful person afterwards.

“This was all Pink Diamond!” “My mom?..” he’s put back and disturbed by even the mention of his mom, I think it’s trigger for him. And right after—

— He apologise and vaguely explains why he turned pink, he looks so uncomfortable and scared at the mention of her and while explaining his reaction

“It doesn’t matter! I’m gonna fix it” he literally starts shaking, blocking his ears and holding his head.

“Stop it! I can’t deal with one more horrible thing that she did!” He snaps at a trigger, and starts getting incredibly angry and emotional

“I don’t wanna hear about it! I don’t even wanna THINK about it!” Just his voice when he says this, he sounds so scared. And his delusional yelling and movements just scream how much he’s put off by his mum. (HELP him)

There’s probably gonna be so much more in the future. But please stop just calling this ‘hormones’, this isn’t how hormones work. This poor kid has a mental illness. And even in the last 5 seasons there’s so much more for him to be absolutely traumatised for.

“Find your center, your very core. Remember – your body isn’t just a projection of light but also a reflection of your inner soul.”

“I only came here because I felt bad for you, but all of this is your own fault. All the other Gems were corrupted by the Diamonds, but – but you corrupted yourself just to win a fight, which you lost to me! No one’s making you stay here all alone in the middle of nowhere ready to fight a war that’s been over for years! Are you just gonna sit here for centuries waiting for someone to give you a purpose?! Because I’m trying to give you one!“

Jasper: “I don’t need your help. You’re the one that needs help. You think you’ve beaten me, but you’ve never beaten me on your own. You’ve always been a fusion. You’ve always had your friends because you’re nothing without them. You think everyone needs help.” Steven: “I – I just…” Jasper: “But it’s only you. No one is as pitiful as you.”

Amethyst: “So what about you?” Steven: “Uh, what about me?” Amethyst: “Now that things are settling down a bit, what are you going to do? Come on. Let’s talk about your future! The doctor is in. The first session is free.” Steven: “I don’t know. I still want to help people, but maybe I’m losing my touch.”

“I thought I was ready to move on and not have her hanging over me anymore, but I can barely be in a room with you because I still feel all twisted up about her. I’ve been pretending that I’m fine because it’s not your fault, but I’m not fine.“

[Stores his mother’s image in a place he doesn’t have to see it or interact with it- compartmentalizing it away.]

“Her physical form shows damage, but her pearl is perfectly fine. This injury must have been so impactful that it continues to manifest despite the fact that her pearl has been repaired.”



“So, it’s like… psychological?”

“That’s absurd, I am fine!” [gem cracks more]

“STOP IT! I can’t deal with ONE more horrible thing she did, okay?! I don’t wanna hear about it, I don’t even wanna THINK about it! I just- want to FIX IT!!”

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Remember – your body isn’t just a projection of light but also a reflection of your inner soul.

To find balance, you must understand your feelings. To understand your feelings, you must see them clearly without running from them.

An imbalance can cause [you] to lose touch with reality, see things that aren’t there, and eventually fall apart.

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