FREE YOURSELF

Beautiful

Beloved

MEMORY OF A PROMISE

I still think of you.

You somehow became more real

As you faded slowly in flesh and blood.

Distance did not take you far

Like a trail it brought you back

In a loop.

You somehow became more real

Real , just as I had once needed you to be.

I make you smile and look at me

The way I wanted you to then,

I can picture you as the lover I wanted 

To see.

My eyes see with my mind

What they longed to see

When you forgot to look at me.

In my mind you are just as I had thought 

You to be.

I listen to songs

From our time together 

They seem sweeter now,

Like fulfillment.

They don't have the ache of heartbreak

Like they did when we heard them together 

Lost in our own little worlds

Doors shut to each other.

I like the songs more

I don't cry as I hear them now

There is a stillness of coming home

In these memories of us

As if the lights are on

And you are silhouetted by the window.

The cigarette smoke 

Beckoning me 

As a warm hearth would 

On a cold day.

I see you in my mind

Just as you had promised

Once you would be, to me.

I told myself to forget that promise

The day I walked away.

I wiped  out the clouds from my sky

So the sunshine of my own magic

Could recreate you

And turn you into a permanent 

Dawn scattered upon 

my lonely firmament.

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