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several weeks ago, i faced one kinda big decision in my life. this is another out of comfort zone phase, which I'm actually not ready to encounter but finally it happened anyhow.

to say that it is a big decision is an overstatement and exaggerating, this is just another love story. what makes the difference is; it was the first time i felt so in love. i did not give a damn about what other people say, event what my parents say. i was so oblivious to what might happen if i stay in this relationship until for ever. i thought, i gotta take care of my own heart, i know what is the best for me.

all these years with him, it was very lovely. although, i have to be honest too that sometimes i got so irritated by him until the point that i just couldn't bear, but then i thought, let's give it one more try. it worked.

then there came this point when i just could not handle anymore; it is all about myself. i have been swallowing my pride a lot to keep this relationship going. he did too, but sometimes i just chose not to do some particular thing than just making it a trigger for a fight. i kept thinking; this is not tolerable. 

he broke me up. 

with such an non-sense and unfair reason.

the thing is, if we really have to be not together in the end, i'll try to live with it; forgetting all the things we used to do. but breaking up as if I'm the one who did wrong, is not really acceptable for me, because there are so many things left unspoken - i was too tired to speak up for myself while he always protects himself in the name of his family. 

who does not want to make his or her family happy?

sometimes you just gotta know what to tell to your family about your partner, and what is not. it is crystal clear now that age does not define maturity. 

it is true that family are the ones whom you should prioritise. it is true that family will always be there for you. always. it is true that family knows what is the best for you. well, sometimes they do.

not always, right?

sometimes, too, you know what is the best for you, because it is the life you live. it is really, really fine to take what they say as an advice, but it is you who decide whether you want to follow their advice straightforwardly, or just making it as a base of your decision which sometimes won't satisfy everyone involved in there.