Psychedelic Symphonies

I've tried three times to write on here lately and just weirdly enough some weird circumstances happen to where it doesn't make it all the way through. I want to say a lot I really do but this is just life. Another chapter closed and another one opens. I've realized that not only was I trying to make something work that wouldn't but I just waisted a lot of time I could use on myself. No more. I want to do WHAT I FUCKING WANT TO DO. No more ducking cigarettes no more being a fucking petty pool. I am tired of not living the ways I want to do. I need to explore more work harder eat better and just over all live. I am the most important person in my life and it needs to be shown now. I've only had me in my life I'm the person that I know how to make happy. Idk man I'm really fucking emotional right now and it's just because I'm learning the hard way of being an adult. But at this point of time fuck all of that bullshit I just dealt with last night I need to move on and fast. I got so much more better things than to be dragged around by someone you like and they don't want a fucking thing to do with you. Ugh I'm just so mad and I just wanted to write before work so I didn't do anything I'd regret over there.