jay

I can just go for a walk and say hi to people and I dont have to cut myself or think about trazadone again or the river at my college ohhh and I can read books and I can watch Adventure Time. And i can play with my boyfriend and ask strangers if I can pet their dogs

Its so weird when im not depressed because a part of me craves that hole and really likes it and i get little tickles of it every now and again and i think i should throw myself down that hole again but then i realize i dont have to and its like ohhh. Okay so I don’t have to dig a hole and lower myself into it I can just go for a walk

Reading that message over and over. Just so you know

How to ethically douse myself in gas and set myself on fire

How do u not die every day

Genuinely how do you build confidence how do you feel pretty😭😭😭 How to not feel like a pig in makeup😭How to not feel like an ugly beast every day