the more time I spend back here, the more I read my old posts, the more I see how happy these 5 boys made me. they are truly the reason I am still here, walking this earth, they are the reason I’m confident I can achieve my dreams, and it hurts so much that I will never hear them sing together one last time. but as much as being back here is hurting my soul, it is also healing it in a way. I feel so happy that I have you guys and we are mourning together, this community is magical.





















