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So I’ve been taking coding lessons this past 1 week.

It began when I attended Women In Tech few weeks back. The participants got a chance to have a free 2-weeks coding lessons. I took HTML&CSS and apparently they opened the whole web development path for free too! So it’s gonna be HTML & CSS, JS, SQL, and Node.js.

I just started with HTML & CSS and it already gave me such a headache........................ like........ i reeaaallly wanna ask why do you need this much classes for one content????? and it’s an online class so ya can’t just raise my hand and got the answer. Well there’s this Telegram group but it seems like everybody already finished their dojo and here i am.... sad and confused........ wkwkwk. and I do want to ask the questions there but why does my question seem stupid wkwkwkwkwk.

(i finally asked the mentor tho wkwk)

Anyway, little life updates. It’s the 9th month of self quarantine due to covid-19. Quite proud of how I manage to stay fairly sane and don’t gain too much weight from not going to the gym. My skin got better (not exposed to Jkt’s polluted air lolz), and I bought myself essential oil diffuser and an ergonomic chair (bye low back pain) and a new laptop! (lyk finally lol)

My new daily routines look like this: wake up, pray, quick snack (banana/oatmeal/dates), exercise, shower, bfast, werk, lunch, werk, dinner, Netflix. Pretty boring huh. That’s whyyyy I decided I need something new! Hence the coding class! And now I have this persistent headache! Yeay!

But I think this headache is also due to be under comfort zone for way too long. Like if I look at how fast my peers from vendor learn... woah they gonna take over the world soon lol.

Let’s write some more.

So I have these 2 working modes: operational mode and analytical mode.

Operational mode: when I gotta finish configuring things on the platform so it the product is working as expected

Analytical mode: when I have to look at the data and find pattern, insight, whateva.

And I found it hard to mix these 2 modes on one day.

I So that gratitude thing only lasted for 11 days. lol.

And now we’re in.... 17 Aug 2020.

Wanna know how 2020 looks like? To sum up:

Major flood in Jakarta.

Trump (yap that Donald Trump, who’s currently POTUS) and Xi Jinping almost throw a WW III earlier this year.

Kobe Bryant and his daughter, died in a helicopter accident.

There’s this new virus called Covid-19, originated from Wuhan-China, that’s causing a major lockdown across countries. Millions have been tested positive for the virus, while the death toll has reached 770k. Lots of people become unemployed, no tourism activities, so many govts across the world are incapable of handling this pandemic. Indonesia’s GDP growth on Q2 2020 is around -5% if I’m not mistaken.

So ya, things are looking pretty bleak.

As for meeee well um I’m officially 30 few weeks ago. Not promoted yet, while my workload is like #$&$^*(#. No sign of slowing down from the company and I’m just fukin tired of it all. Had a mental breakdown few days ago. Planning to have days off in the upcoming week.

Yeah i’m being very negative right now. Let me rant okay?

Today I am grateful for trying a new kind of Chinese cuisine in Royal Silk Road restaurant and it was shooooo interesting. Will def go back and try the noodles!

Also managed to overhaul my skincare to the halal ones. It's kinda painful actually to throw all those creams and stuff but what if that was the reason that some of my prayers haven't been granted? Because when I pray I was wearing non-halal stuff on my face and thus makes my prayer... invalid?

I thank God for the cold breeze and the rain.

Today I'm very very very very grateful for being acknowledged for my opinions and treated as if my voice counts :") I mean, it's been quite a while since bosses acknowledge my opinions and I'm just getting used to doing everything my boss tells me to do because everytime I question his decision I was just told to do whatever he asked me to do.

Thank you, for bringing out the better part of me.

(Another late one. Geez)

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Heard great news from Dani! Omg so proud amd so happy she found her way. Kinda inspired too, could be another exit plan for meh.

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Today I'm grateful that I'm not in the P******d team anymore. Grateful that I got away from that bunch of hypocrites and ass-lickers. I know that this decision that I made has consequences, but I'm happier everyday in this team and a lot of people can see that.