i can't help but think about how hard i probably am to love. i find it hard to open up to others and i can't allow myself to be that vulnerable even with my friends and family. i'm terrified of losing my "peace" if i let people in and let them know the real, true me. i don't know if i'm capable of letting myself truly love and care for another with my whole being. because it's always been easier to not get too attached, to be able to easily run away, so as to avoid hurting others and getting hurt.

oh my god. ahn soeun would've loved everything that's happening with nasa and artemis ii right now. the live updates? the new photos of the moon? the new discoveries? the impact flashes real time descriptions? she'd go batshit crazy. she would've been so, so psyched to the point that it's all she's going to talk about, i just know her friends are gonna find her so annoying lmao. she's going to cry about it all, especially carroll crater and the astronauts' iconic quotes about always choosing earth and humanity.