dark percy and stuff

anon: head cannons on how percy dealt with handling his feelings toward calypso when she comes back? like stuff about the curse and stuff?

mycrazyfangirl21: Hi Lilianne! First of all, I have to say that I LOVE your story Hidden and I wait anxiously for the next chapter everytime it’s updated. Can you do a headcanon with semi dark!Percy at CHB when he sees Calypso again? I’ve always wondered how that would play out and frankly I found that in HoH it was kind of OOC that he forgave her for cursing Annabeth so quickly.

I thought that was weird too! I mean, she literally cursed Annabeth out of spite, and he was just like, meh, whatever. Still, I think he probably avoids conflict when it’s unnecessary, so it’s not like he’ll go berserk, of course.

I’m hoping that since you ‘LOVE my story’ you won’t mind that I wrote this in fic format instead of headcanon? (Also I’m adding Annabeth in this too? Sorry?)

No one had really been paying her much mind the last hour. Leo was the center of everything, getting lovingly mauled by all of his camp friends that had burned his shroud over a week ago. Calypso was just watching. It had been so long since she’d seen more than one person at a time, and she’d missed watching people interact. 

The girl with the choppy hair and the braids hadn’t let go of Leo since they got there, she was pretty sure. She had to calm herself down. ‘Piper’ was not Leo’s Penelope, or his Annabeth. She was his friend. No need to be jealous. (Although, when you spend most of your life with having the men all to yourself, it was strange how easily her envy would grow at the littlest things.)

She’d actually only recognized his aura. As an immortal, and daughter of a Titan, she could sense quite a few of the most powerful demigods, so obviously, she could tell when Percy Jackson was near without any trouble.

It took her a second to place the tall guy that was leaning on the pillars beside the dining pavilion as him. He was outside of the Leo kumbaya party, casually watching from the edge of the group, looking almost bored. Her feet had a mind of their own, and she sped towards him, only knowing who he was based off of the feeling of the restless ocean and general power that Percy had always emanated, even if it was stronger now.

Percy had always been cute. Much cuter than Leo anyways, I mean, she never complained when Percy Jackson showed up on her island, even though he was fourteen and beat up. Yeah, he’d been kind of charming looking,with  that devilish smirk and those twinkling green eyes. Paired up with his polite sense of humor and total hero-must-go-home-so-I-can-help-my-friends vibe, she hadn’t ever really had trouble falling for him. Even if he had been sort of short, and a little scrawnier than the usual guys who landed there.

This wasn’t Percy.

The guy she was walking up to was not Percy. He had messy black hair, but it had been cut, and now looked more ‘windblown’ than ridiculous. He was all tall and muscular and wearing one of those damn orange t-shirts too. His hands were shoved in black jean pockets, and the closer she got to him the more she realized his aura was colder now, it reminded her of Ares, or maybe even Hades.

Then he looked at her.

Honestly I’m growing more and more attached to this by the minute. (@bananannabeth made the original post about it after we talked, it’s gorgeous.)

If you think about it, Percy’s character arc in PJO was a zero-to-hero type of story. (It’s not like he was ever really a weak demigod, to be fair.) He was hated, he was scrawny, he was forbidden, he was blamed for everything, and he was horribly underestimated and believed to be a bad guy by some people. By the end of PJO, he was adored, strong, invincible, with two girls who liked him and everyone knew he was the good guy. Even Luke in the end. It was gorgeous, one of the best character stories, he was the same, but the way he was seen and received changed drastically. Never once did Percy change who he was for someone else, and that’s what can make him such a great role model.

And then HoO rolled around, and Rick made it hard to love Percy. HONESTY TIME: If you hadn’t read PJO before HoO, would you love Percy? I mean, at all? I know I’d be Jason trash mostly. I probably wouldn’t even ship Percabeth until the end of MoA?

Percy was…I hate to say it, because I love Rick and obviously I adore his characters…really poorly written throughout HoO. I almost didn’t even finish the series because it was just so annoying to me. I actually put MoA down and didn’t pick it back up for a long time when Piper called Percy unimpressive. Not because I’m shallow and want him idealized, but because it’s what we dealt with for like 10 books before.

The plot of Percy being underestimated is just, old. It’s not that I didn’t love it in PJO, it’s that he’s 16-17 now and has saved the world more times than he can count and it’s done, that plot needs to be laid to rest. Honestly, in the beginning, it seemed like Jason’s only purpose was to put Percy down again, to prove that he’s not worthy.

That’s why I find an idealized Percy so intriguing. We started to see what that would be like at the end of TLO, with people screaming at him for help and he’s the center of attention to all of the bad guys and he’s the very obvious leader with gorgeous speeches and people okaying things with him and Rick could have continued that, and shown how it can work on the other end too.

Jason could be made into an actual character early on, not just the bigger, better version of Percy. They didn’t have to make such a point of how handsome he was (it got old, you gotta admit), they could focus actually on a backstory or his emotional state, not how he measured up to Percy.

I want to have TLH be full of slight references like “Percy would’ve been able to do that quest on his own.” and sarcastic laughter. Parts where people put Jason down because he’s not Percy, because yeah, I wanted some resentment between them, we all did. I want monsters to mention him and for Piper and Leo and Jason to begin to think of him as more of a myth or a legend than a teenage guy.

In SoN, he could maybe have kept the Curse of Achilles (c’mon, we all know that that Greek curse thing was bullshit and he just had to be on the same level as everyone else, we made a whole post about it here) if that would have worked in the plot. Hazel would be in complete awe of him, and Percy’d protect them both without hesitation of course. We’d see them start to rely on the fact that he jumps in front of them and tells them what to do at any sign of danger. Both of them would think Annabeth is the safest girl in the world, knowing all that Percy would do for her. They wouldn’t think of him as a friend, they’d think of him as a figure, a symbol of leadership and big brother and their safety.

And then MoA, where it would hit it’s peak. Where Piper and Jason and Leo would look at Percy like he’s some mythological figure, and Frank and Hazel are now automatically wired to scream his name at the first sign of trouble. Annabeth would still see him how she did, but maybe as more of a hero, like she’s accepted that her boyfriend’s basically Hercules, and she’s not his sidekick, because he doesn’t need a sidekick. She’ll be there though, because there’s no way she’s leaving him alone. And the book continues and everyone looks at Percy when they’re making a decision and an air of ‘If he can’t do it, nobody can!’ circles around all of them and the camps and Percy’s just doing the best he can to treat them all like their his responsibility, not like they’re his team.

Around rolls HoH where Percy’s in Tartarus and being destroyed and trying to take care of Annabeth and constantly worrying about the Argo kids and being beaten by a monster for the first time in a long time and breaking down because he can’t protect Annabeth and he can’t protect the camp or the other camp and he can’t protect Bob and he can’t protect Nico or Hazel or Jason or Piper or Frank or Leo and dammit he doesn’t know what to do. They survive Tartarus, and the pressure that’s put on Percy doesn’t go away because holy crap he survived Tartarus he’s truly a god.

BoO could have been filled with development for all of them. Hazel and Frank realizing that Percy’s just a kid too and he’s a hero but he’s scared and not untouchable. Leo and Piper seeing him as a real person, connections on a human level, friendships. Jason seeing that it’s not a competition, because they all have baggage. Annabeth being next to him at all times and keeping him grounded.

PJO was about him being seen as a human amongst gods, but deciding in the end that being human was good. HoO could have been about him being seen as a god amongst humans, and deciding again, in the end, that he’s a human.

I just 

I never ever ever understand how people got the idea that Percy looks like your average normal harmless guy cause even in the very beginning of the series he had some intimidating elements despite being so young that only got worse and worse as he grew.

It’s completely canon of Percy’s appearance and mannerisms that:

His neutral resting facial expression is literally a dark brooding look that he got from Poseidon. Like it’s completely canon that he has an awful case of resting bitch face syndrome I will fight you on this.

That on the off chance he does smile he looks like a trouble maker and that he’s up to no good.

That he’s very very sarcastic and snarky.

That when he’s fighting his expression is so dark that it’s hard to tell whether he is the good guy or not.

That just the simple look of anger on his face was considered on par to Jason controlling lightning.

That when he’s fighting, his was literally compared to demon.

Author’s Note: I want to wish a HUGE happy birthday to tai-chi-leigh! Casey, I love you sooo much, and thank you for getting me addicted to The 100 and always being there for me. I know that I can count on you 100% of the time. I love you, and I hope you have a wonderful day!! (I hope you like this fic too bc it’s just for you!)

Summary: Percy just really wanted to know who his letters belonged to. He was tired of not having a face to put with his AC. Or, the one where everyone has their soul-mate's initials on their wrist, and Percy is just too impatient for this whole thing.  

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His mom always told him that he would eventually find them. She always said to never go looking for them because the second that he was least expecting it was when it would happen.

He tried to not expect it a lot.

This is the headcanon I thought of yesterday, and it’s been plaguing me non-stop, so I decided to share the beauty that this could be.

I don’t really care how it comes to be, you can assume Percy was able to push Annabeth out of the way, sacrificing himself (which would make the ‘Sacrifices, beautiful sacrifices’ line like a thousand times creepier omg) or honestly, a bunch of different scenarios, as long as he falls in, and she doesn’t.

Imagine Percy Jackson, dead set on getting to the Doors of Death, not to save the quest, but to see his girlfriend again, and to at least hug his mom one last time. Imagine Percy Jackson, facing all of those monsters he’s already killed, but without having to worry about anyone’s safety besides his own. [I still stand firm in my belief that Percy has to tone down his powers so they don’t hurt his friends, especially in the case of causing an earthquake/storm (for example: Michael Yew dying on the bridge)].

Imagine Percy Jackson ripping anything that asks him ‘Where’s your little blonde princess, hero?’ to absolute shreds, because they know that Annabeth is usually at his side. Imagine him threatening monsters for information (“If you do not tell me which way to go, I swear on the gods that if you ever regenerate I will hunt you down and make damn sure that you never see the light of day again, got it?”).

Imagine everyone on the Argo II watching Annabeth fall apart as she asks Nico if Percy’s still alive about once every five minutes. And the Iris message call to Sally that she has to make. And them watching Piper’s dagger every chance they can get to see how he’s doing. (Also, how much more progress they’d make with Annabeth still there.) 

Think about how she’d pin any intelligent monster that attacks them, put her dagger to it’s throat, and scream at them for information about what was happening in Tartarus. Think about the POV’s saying how Piper had to practically force Annabeth to eat, and how Annabeth smacked Coach Hedge across the face when he scolds her for sleeping in Percy’s bed.

Most of all, think of the dark Percy. Because I wholeheartedly believe that by the time he escapes: He’s a bloodbender. I mean, look at this:

Annabeth sounded terrified. It took Percy a moment to realize she was terrified of him.

“Percy, please don’t ever…” Her voice broke in a sob. “Some things aren’t meant to be controlled. Please.”

His whole body tingled with power, but the anger was subsiding. The broken glass inside him was beginning to smooth at the edges.

“Yeah,” he said. “Yeah, okay.”

Without Annabeth there, there’s nothing holding him back from doing this to everything he comes across. He can go wild, and I honestly think he would. He’d pretty much have the best training grounds in the world, and can practice practically exploding monsters with his brain. Imagine him making deals with some of the darkest creatures there, promising them freedom if they help him, and then murdering them the second he doesn’t need them.

Imagine him stumbling out of the elevator, and he’s bloody and bruised, muttering about Bob, and everyone is just kind of shocked to see him alive and in somewhat of one piece. Imagine how we’d get a Percabeth reunion that doesn’t involve a judo flip, but instead they’re sobbing on their knees holding onto each other for dear life, with her trying not to squeeze him too hard in case it hurts but he’s about to suffocate her.

Think about how Percy using ‘bloodbending’ in their everyday lives for the first time and scares the hell out of absolutely everyone when he lazily waves his hand and a manticore starts writhing on the deck in pain. Everyone staring at him as he mutters something about having ‘new powers’ and goes back to eating his breakfast.

Think about Annabeth trying to relate to him, but she really can’t, so after a heart to heart she realizes that she just needs to be there for him. Percy and Annabeth sitting up at night as he tries to make himself tell her about his nightmares no matter how hard it is, and Annabeth kissing him over and over and promising him that she loves him, even when he insists he’s broken or evil.

Gaea mocking Percy with stories about all of the sick things he did to monsters, making the rest of the seven confused. Nico and he having long talks, not about Nico’s crush, but about how to deal with Tartarus, and the two of them getting really close.

Annabeth acting as Percy Defense Squad No. 1, and glaring at anyone who tried to avoid being near Percy, and insisting that he’s still their Percy, and being the only one who gets to see him after nightmares and rubbing the small of his back and whispering about it being okay and taking the time to explain to anyone who asks what happened to him. 

Monsters taunting Percy, trying to get him on edge, growling, “Remember when you made Misery miserable, Percy Jackson? Do you remember the feeling of her choking on her own poison?”  and Annabeth stepping in front of her agitated boyfriend, and even though she doesn’t know what the monster is talking about, she’s snapping at it to back off and grabbing Percy’s hand to calm him down.

Jason admitting he’s legitimately scared of Percy, and everyone seems to agree. Everyone watching as Percy kills things in this new and inhuman way, and Nico whispering “Well, we should just be glad he’s on our side then.” The gods treating Percy differently, with more respect and fear, none of them wanting to bring it up to him that they don’t like his style, and are worried if he turned.

Percy’s neutral expression is a natural brooding look that he gets from Poseidon

That when he does smile it’s crooked and makes him look like a trouble maker

When he talks it’s usually very sarcastic and/or impertinent 

His inner monologue is actually very negative and while we, as the readers, take it as a joke he’s usually pretty pessimistic for a good portion of the time

That when he’s fighting his expression is fierce and is hard to tell whether he is the good guy or not

That Leo Valdez equated Percy’s angry expression to the feeling he gets when Jason is about to shoot lightning. Let me repeat - just the look on Percy’s face when he’s angry was considered on par to Jason controlling flipping lightning

That he’s very very vindictive and loyal only to those he considers his friends and once you lose his trust it is nearly impossible to earn back 

That while he had the curse of achilles, he laughed crazily while he was single handedly destroying hordes of monsters

He made an entire volcano erupt, awakened a giant, and almost wiped out the northwest of the united states

He tortured a godess just so she would feel his misery

That he’s actually very manipulative and it made Annabeth step back for a moment and reevaluate her perception of him

That while his dark side came to it’s peak in house of hades and wasn’t mentioned in blood of olympus, there was no confirmation that it suddenly and completely disappeared after they left Tartarus.

Has been the child of the prophecy twice.

He manipulated Bob to kill his own brother by simply convincing him that they were friends and that is what friends did for each other

He was physically abused by his step father

That with absolutely no training at all he killed the minotaur with it’s own horn at the mere age of twelve

He wins a good majority of his fights by simply outsmarting his opponent 

He has scared not only Annabeth but his friends and peers on more than one occasion with his attitude and powers

That he’s considered extremely powerful for a demigod and for a child of the big three and makes the gods slightly nervous

That when he’s upset his powers act to mimic his emotions without him even trying

Has been offered immortality

That he is actually really sorta intimidating without trying 

Answers range from “Tear Olympus to the ground with his bare hands.”, “Snap Zeus’ neck and yell a lot.”, “Find where she is in a matter of days and never help the gods again, ever.”, and “Probably torture Hera in his basement until she tells him what she did to his Wise Girl.” 

You can almost see the burning realization in their eyes that they finally recognize that he’s a terrifying soldier who’ll brutally murder people, gods, and monsters, if need be.

I 100% believe that monsters are somewhat, if not extremely, scared of Perseus Jackson. They probably tell ghost stories about him at night. The more intelligent ones probably decide not to attack him if they sense his aura in the area, because they want to live. He’s probably known to them as the new Hercules or whatever, known for never losing a fight against a monster, and defeating Kronos (they probably aren’t aware of Luke’s sacrifice I think).

And if you don’t think that part of the reason Zeus hates/hated Percy, was because he didn’t like how powerful this son of Poseidon was, then I recommend you go reread the series. If you haven’t noticed that the gods render Percy in just a little higher light than other demigods (he’s allowed to say pretty much whatever he wants, like stuff that would make them try to murder anyone else within seconds), you should know, that they know he’s dangerous.

I firmly believe that the gods call him their ‘weapon’ at strategy meetings (especially Athena, who doesn’t want to personify the sea scum dating her favorite daughter), the wild card pick. They have to value him, and I’d bet you anything that Poseidon’s ‘check-ins’ had an underlying tone of making sure that Percy wasn’t resentful towards the gods ever again, after having the whole Luke fiasco.

I honestly wouldn’t be surprised if some minor gods were stationed to randomly make sure that Annabeth wasn’t going to get hurt too badly, or kidnapped, when she was out on her own, because nobody wanted Percy to destroy a few countries over her. 

There has to be a darkness in any human being who’s gone through what Percy has, and the fact that he can still joke around, and laugh and kiss his girlfriend at the end of the day, makes him all that much more scarier. I’d appreciate it if the fandom would start to realize these things, and I would’ve really appreciated it if Rick Riordan had but it’s too late for that now.