A/N: This is actually coda to 4x01 which I got around to watching like an hour ago and I just had to type this up so yeah. I’ll catch up with this show eventually
When worse comes to worse, Cisco knows that he has an incredibly effective habit of repressing the hell out of his issues until they go away, burying his problems under equations and diagrams and machines and hey, if those don’t work out, there’s always Star Trek. It’s maybe a little stupid and maybe a lot idealistic but a little faith never hurt anyone.
(Or a lot. Maybe a lot. More faith than is smart and Cisco has always given everything he has, even if it means it takes a little of his soul along the way.)
Faith can do anything, his Mama used to say, when Cisco was still tiny and still held onto every word she used to say the way only a five-year-old can. It’s never really worked out that way for him, and if he were perfectly honest, faith ends up causing more problems that it fixes, but hey, a man’s gotta cope somehow.
Barry has to come back. Caitlin has to get better. Absolute truths that absolutely nothing can disprove.
Cisco doesn’t deal with loss very well. Or at all. When he was eight, he dropped his Walkman down two flights of stairs and smashing it to pieces. Three hours later, he has it back to working condition, and maybe three hundred times better than it was before.
(He built four Flash suits, just in case, each one better than the last because losing one meant losing Barry and losing STAR Labs and losing everyone and…
Cisco really does not deal with loss very well.)
There’s something to be said about being a science prodigy and being a superhero at the same time, about constantly creating the impossible with his fingers, with his hands that makes him think that nothing’s actually impossible. Cisco’s not stupid enough to believe that he can unlock the secrets of the universe because that’s never gonna happen but he doesn’t have to unlock the secrets, he doesn’t have to know everything. He just has to do it.
Because there’s always a way out. There’s always a way of twisting the equation, tweaking the variables in-between, or just making a completely new equation to get the result he wants. It’s rarely easy but it’s never impossible.
There’s no such thing as irredeemable (he sees her fall before his eyes and knows in his heart that there’s no coming back from that but that doesn’t matter because he can save her. He can.) and there’s no such thing as unattainable (he never really understood the speedforce but then, the speedforce has never met the likes of Cisco fucking Ramon before.)
It makes him maybe a little stupid, and maybe a lot reckless.
But hey, it worked and you don’t look a gift horse in the mouth.
And it will work, he thinks as he looks at the speedforce bazooka in his hands. It has to.
