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no matter what i do i always end up feeling alone i still feel so alone

don’t mine me! i’m just spiraling, again, i promise i’ll stay alive for this one

i’ve made so many mistakes and i’m not this great human being, i never was, i do not hold pride, and my ego is unchanged never boosted or lowered, it stays at an equilibrium, there is nothing i want or that i am envious of, i am content with my mess of life even though it’s caused me so much hurt i am grateful for the person it made me become

i really don’t know what to do i feel sort of trapped into things even though i distance myself from these things people always find a way to entrap me in and they might think they are influencing me but i have my own thoughts my own opinions and my own take, im neutral, i know where i belong and where i don’t, i am a floater i am not to be trapped into the hive mind groups get stuck in so i feel that i know when to step away from a topic because it is safe for everyone, i know when to open my mind and close my heart

i spent 16 hours in the emergency room, i described it as the roughest night of my life, i was in tune to what was going on around me and it sounded like the hospital itself had a heartbeat, even though it was someone’s monitor, it just sounded like the hospital was alive, with a heart, still beating even after the person left