Shame is an emotion that could be said to be foreign to the scantily clad, outspoken, oftentimes blunt Cagliostro. And yet, hearing Prelatiâs voice, actually seeing her in the midst of the throng, itâs all she can feel. She had been spirited away to and then from this place before she even realized it, all by no fault of her own. Regardless, she feels responsible. Saint-Germain had cried in her arms. Finally able to let down her walls, she had shared her pain with Cagliostro and Cagliostro had promised that she would never leave her alone like that again.
Did Saint-Germain cry in Prelatiâs arms afterwards, Cagliostro wonders? No⌠No, surely not. Prelati has always been more practical than that. She has her own ways of helping their mutual wife through her emotional constipation. But Saint-Germain must have been devastated nonetheless, and it was Prelati who was there to help pick up the pieces.
Now, Cagliostro stands, maintaining eye contact with Prelati. In its own way, her unwillingness to look away is an expression of her philosophy to always be true to herself; sheâs taking responsibility. Sheâs not going to run or hide.
âHave I ever hid from either of you?â she utters softly with a sad smile, trusting that even surrounded by the bustle around them, her words would make it to the other. She sighs, then a little louder, clarifies, âI was taken away. Here one moment, gone the next. PoofâŚâ
âHow have you been? It's⌠been a while, right?â
She realizes that she could so easily disappear again, at any time.
Finally, she turns her gaze downwards, only for a moment. Then sheâs looking into Prelatiâs eyes again. Itâs a look of heartbreak and of apologies she doesnât know if they could ever be adequate. Apologies that are unnecessary, yet vital.
âHowâs Saint-GermainâŚ?â
The volume of her voice softens again.
She canât stop thinking about it. The idea that she could be snatched away again. That any of them could be stolen from the other two, orâworse yetâthat two of them could end up leaving the last all aloneâŚ
Prelati holds her ground, utterly still as she listens intently to every word, watches every twitch of the otherâs form. Where she was often reserved, monotone, Cagliostro was nearly the polar opposite. She wore her feelings completely bare, lived with her heart out in the open by way of that promise she made long ago, to abandon her life of deception and be true to who she was, what she felt.
And Prelati would always know that she was holding to that vow. Between the two and their third- the one who had brought them together centuries ago- they knew each other as intimately as they knew themselves; their souls shared a bond forged over time most humans could never even dream of having with the people they loved.
Whatever they felt, the other two would notice.
The shame, the regret Cagliostro felt...it sunk to unfathomable depths, plummeting into an abyss with her heart in tow, clenched in an inescapable grip that dug in deep. She would never have abandoned Saint-Germain of her own accord, of course not. Â
Neither of them would have. Nor would she, them.
When she speaks again, her tone is soft and low as before, but the uncertainty, the tremble of disbelief and pent-up frustration with her, has slipped away.
â...This place has taken its toll on her. I can tell, she worries about losing me like she did you. I did what I could to comfort her, but I knew that it was essentially futile. With all of us victims of cruel whimsy, I could only treat her worries, not cure her of them.â
She would worry about losing Cagliostro again, too. She would do all she could to not afford herself happiness in their complete reunion, as it was merely a setup for devastation when they would ever be split apart once more.
Her eyes open to meet the pair opposite hers.
âBut she wasnât upset that I was here. She was happy to see me again, as was I...and as I am to see you.â The ghost of a smile seems to fade across her lips before vanishing once more.  âBasically, being with each other is the best we can do for her.â