I don't mean to cause you confusion, to be fair, I'm quite confused myself. I know this, I was there, heart full, arms open waiting to feel at home again. Now in this present there is fear, memories of swollen eyes, and doors closing. I am scared of the fire that ignites in my heart for you, it has burned me more times than one. Admittedly, I am a selfish girl. I fear another will replace my position as the moon. As the star in your sky. Id rather see the world destroyed before another's soul exists as your constellation. I want to run home, where the scent of lavender floods my nose again, where moles appear on thighs, and scars exist on hands, and eyes become soft, an asterism. I am afraid you might ruin me, yet, it seems you already have.