Inside my mind.

I don’t usually wear hats but I gotta rep @subpop and their new store is right by my job. #subpop #lgbt #gay #snapbackhat #beard#warbyparker #single #christmaspresents #seattle (at Amazon Headquarters Seattle) https://www.instagram.com/p/CIrd2eSBb6IZv9sYpT3E4Cw_5BtKTCdBkpfoN00/?igshid=orcptmtherze

Finally fresh hair cut and beard from Sarah G @rudysbarbershop . Heading to the gym listening to juice by @lizzobeeating .#saturdaymorning #gym#freshhaircut #beard #workout #gay #lgbt #sweat (at Capitol Hill) https://www.instagram.com/p/BuO9ANMnVdF/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1jpjsop1t0yqu

Trying to get crop top ready for summer 🤣🤣#gym #seattle #saturdaymorning #gay #gaybeard #lgbt #sweaty (at 24 Hour Fitness - Downtown Seattle, WA) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt-OQ_DnRSa/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=15ozw8v2f4dk2

Snow Saturday at Union with Zach and his pup. Seeing this guy always brings a smile to my face .#seattle #sf #snowday #lgbt #gay #friends (at Union Seattle) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt4qufMnhbS/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=inh7ufgia7yc

Even dogs have better Valentine’s Day plans.#dogs #doggrooming #valentines #dogboarding #seattle (at Seattle, Washington) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt1YBYdndXC/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=2gkppk2nde0t

I hate snow .. I hate going into work in the snow . #seattlesnow #snow#snowbeard #seattle #ugh #gaybear #beard #lgbt (at Seattle, Washington) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt1ILOmHrjt/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1hvceahb0se8e

Walking home from watching drag race at @rplacecapitolhill ... thank god I live a block away so I don’t have travel in this . #seattlesnow #seattle #snow#fridaynight https://www.instagram.com/p/Btplnu8HEHJ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ia6yxqhipmm8

Bathroom lighting at work and I need a beard trim.#beard #greybeard #seattle #single #gay #gaybear #lgbt (at Amazon - Houdini (SEA70)) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtpZePSn_a-/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12i6tcd1xaqnt

Ugh ... everyone knows how much I love snow 🤬🤬. #seattle #snow #ugh #beard #snowbeard (at Capitol Hill) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtdrSurnlta/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=10xsd0w7ynpfy

When you book a conference room just so you can leave your desk . #work#seattle#quiet# (at Seattle, Washington) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtUYPpVnxAt/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1gnytctipz3k7

Booking a conference room just to have alone time to listen to work in peace , filling out psychiatric paperwork , and listen to The Read . #seattle #mentalhealth #alonetime #gay #gaybear #single #scruffybeard #gaybeard #saltandpepperbeard #smirk (at Amazon Corporate) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtE-jDgnnHZ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1e3b6n13se3na

Adventures with myself and @alinearmemory . #starbucks #coffee #adventure #bestie #seattle (at Shoreline, Washington) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bs2D_J8nrfW/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=xmuq1kckgrkr

Fresh haircut thanks to my fav. Lady Sarah G at Rudy’s . So I was debating on posting my thoughts on something but fuck it . I recently started tagging myself as a bear but I was hesitant to label myself that because of my feelings to that community . The bear community to me is not a supporting and open community, and I tried to give them chances over and over again . The bear community really needs to work on their diversity from their events , bars ,etc. I recently went to a bear event and the dancers were all white , the graphics for the party only displayed white guys . I never felt wanted in those spaces because I NEVER see anyone that looks like me presented in those places . The bear community might have a little sprinkle of diversity one Asian , one Latino , one middle eastern but there needs to be more representing . #gay #seattle #gaybear #single #rant#diversity #lgbt #representationmatters #scruffybeard #haircut #nerd #gaynerdswithbeards (at Seattle, Washington) https://www.instagram.com/p/BszTeIcHsPu/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=lz1fnpfyfue

Do I look intimidating at the gym ? #scruffybeard #gym #gay #seattle #24hrfitness #gaybear #gaybeard #fitness#cardio (at 24 Hour Fitness - Downtown Seattle, WA) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bsqf4Q4H8JE/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=wzuu0c1nsywa

Good evening dancing in Portland and meeting and hanging out with @2dios . Awesome guy and good dance partner .#portland #dancing #shirtless #scruffybeard #gaybear #harness #drymouth #lgbt #gay (at Bossanova Ballroom) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bsoq57oHkv0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=dki2udknvnoa

Weekend getaway to Portland by train .#weekendgetaway #portland #Seattle#train #gay #gaybear #beard#single#trainride #beard #gaybeard (at Amtrak Seattle Union Train Station) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsgOmWuHXCf/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1eu3ia4ckmkm6

Real Talk: I’m going to say some controversial stuff . Yes I am at the gym because I want to lose weight to attract attention from men . I have gotten shamed for wanting to do that but it’s how I feel. People go to the gym to get sexy , stay sexy , or want to stay sexy for their significant other . I know I have a awesome personality but guys see me as a friend but no one says damn eric is sexy physically and personality. I want to get healthy but I want to widen my options in the dating pool. There are certain things on my body that guys love to obsess over and I don’t feel comfortable , I hate people that say they want to rub my belly ... or just grab my fat and think it’s a turn on. My goal for 2019 is lose 5 pounds and read one book a month . #gay #gym #sweaty #workout #truth #honesty #seattle #goals#sexy #beingmyself #bodypositive (at 24 Hour Fitness - Downtown Seattle, WA) https://www.instagram.com/p/BsRsFghHBM3/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=i0zt0477teoq