Ill make an intro later,, just know I occasionally pop up on blogs, Im rq-adjacent, and Ive got some issues I dont particularly address.

hehe, I love when Z calls me his anything,,, he could call me his idiot and Id be happy ><

who are you to judge me for gazing at the face of God and seeing nothing short of perfection. who are you to judge me when Ive seen an angel and hes so very tangible it makes me shred my fingers to bits thinking about it.

I fear I cant sleep in the same room as my beloved,,, Id be scared hes not breathing at night and Id have to sleep near him and constantly press against his chest so I can ensure its going up and down.

I feel silly worrying over how clean my room is when hes said he doesnt mind ;;; I just dont want to seem like Im disgustingly dirty,,, I even mopped the floor,,

mm,,, Z ,, my beloved Z mymymy belovedd (º﹃º),,, weh Im so intensely thinking about him currently,, him and my plants, ( ・∇・)

Im his lovely boy he said so himself ><

I love watching and rewatching the videos he sends me theyre so amazing and awesome and hes so cute I love him ( ≧∀≦)

gah,, my heart,,, him,,,,, him in my clothes.. uuu /// I think I would die !!! Im not exaggerating.. uu,, him in the nice pair of pyjamas I got a while back,,, I barely wear them, but,,,, wah.. hed be so cute in them!! I think if he wore them Id have to form a religion around him so I could devote myself entirely to him ////

I woke up sick again and its very distressing and Im really tired of being sick and having to risk dying over it. Im glad he doesnt have to see me like this, Im worried hed be repulsed.

Id let him jab his fingers into my old surgery scars,, bwah,,,, theyre still sensitive, because I have a bad habit of scratching so touching them still feels like agony,,, and he would never hurt me, but imagining him brushing his hands over them and mumbling something in my ear >< whenever I think about that,, its weirdly intimate for me,,, and sometimes I have to undo some buttons of my shirt because I feel as if Im going to overheat >/<

sometimes, to stop people from talking to me, I like to sit in a quiet corner and pretend I am reading a book,,, in truth I am actually staring at a completely blank page because I simply dont want to read or talk to others. or occasionally I lie about being tired or not feeling well to get out of conversations I feel trapped in. I know its bad to lie, but sometimes I really do not want to engage somebody and they keep going on, and Ive always been told how rude it is to tell someone theyre boring, so I prefer to come up with some excuse they simply cant disprove and hurry off afterwards,,,

they all said I was foolish for waiting for an angel, that itd realistically never happen. yet, I do not see them with an angel that loves them, enjoys talking to them, does not mind their bad habits and poor socialization skills. so, tell me, who really won Sofija?