you are worthy.

Bakit ganon

Di naman tayo

Di pa naman sigurado

Marami pang pwedeng magbago

Bakit ganon

Mas pinipili kong makausap ka

Kaysa mag-aral, kaysa magpahinga

Kahit magkulang ulit sa tulog

Mas pinipili ko nalang mahulog. Sayo.

Bakit ganon

Bakit daw ikaw pa nagustuhan ko

Sa lahat ng tao, ikaw pa nilapitan ko

Sa konti ng oras ko, ikaw pa binigyan ko nito

Sa dami ng gagawin ko, ikaw pa inuuna ko

Bakit nga ba? 

I think I do like you

Even though we only met because of a ball

Even though it was me who liked you first

Even though I was just lucky that you said yes

I think I do like you

Even though they tell me I shouldn’t

Even though you’re scared I wouldn’t

Even though I tell myself to stop it

I think I do like you

Because I think you deserve a chance

Because the world deserves to see your good side

Because I think I can try and change you

I do wish you thought the same

That I could be someone new and permanent to you

That you could start over and show them a new version of you

That we can be more than just mutual friends too

It offends me when people tell me I’m getting fat.

WHY? Simple -- because it adds to the stress that I’m already struggling to control. 

I spend most of my day working, thinking of my responsibilities, controlling my temper, finding ways to earn money, finding time for my family.

Yes, I try to be healthy!!! BUT I also find it hard to sleep early, to find time to jog even at least once a week, to eat at the right hours of the day. 

My body isn’t naturally thin. I’ve read about this. I’ve read too many articles already. I envy those who can eat 3-4 cups of rice and still maintain a flat tummy, because I love food. And I know I get fat easily. IT’S HOW MY BODY WORKS. AND I’M ALREADY SMALL, HOW LITTLE DO YOU WANT ME TO EAT? 

But my point is, stress makes me fat EVEN WITHOUT EATING. 

Eh puta kahit anong research ko kung pano pumayat, hindi ganun kadali. Nakakataba magpuyat. Minsan nagpapagutom ako para lang pumayat (even though I know this is unhealthy) and still, stress hormones will make me fat.

SO STOP TELLING ME NA TUMABA AKO KASI PUTANGINA ANO BA GINAWA KO SA INYO???????

- end of rant - 

August 4, 2017 @ Glorietta Activity Center 🌹🌹🌹

I can’t express enough how in love I am with LANY.

Thank you LANY for your music -- the music that has helped me stay sane and insane at the same time from 12am - 4am everyday. Or practically even 24/7. In the car, in the train, in my classes. I could listen to your songs forever. Somehow even the wordless parts of your songs mean so much to my heart. Thank you for the feelings. 

The more I love you the more it hurts -- and I don’t even know why it hurts.

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