*faint whistling*

I've felt a shift again, making me believe I have DID all over again. Diagnosis wasn't enough to convince me apparently lol. I just didn't believe for a while, kept denying it, but as the weather has been changing, my outlook and everything are shifting again. I feel a spark in me that I haven't felt in a while. It was kinda nice. Also kinda scary. Just a never ending loop it feels like. I kinda want to find something to help me express everything. I've been looking for decent meta verses, been thinking about coming back to this account, to reddit, etc. Reddit always made me more negative, so that's out. This place, I never really made any connections, found any groups, etc... just tried to disappear into the things I repost and focus my energy there. Been thinking about writing but also just don't know. A lot of different memories have come back, and it's not a bad thing. Just stuff I hadn't thought of in a while. I'm feeling creative and don't know to do. I know I used to be obsessed with the idea of astral projection and occult stuff, but I never made any progress with learning to do things, and felt like it was all fake. Idk. I'm stuck in a loop of remembering things that aren't disturbing, but things that make me feel creative and I don't wanna waste the energy.