Cyan

Apples

I met you on a Sunday,

as the sun kissed the horizon goodnight.

your hand pressed into the small of my back—

gentle, like you had a say in where we were going,

as if I wasn’t the one guiding us into ruin.

Your touch felt sacred,

meant for worship in shadows,

holy because only I could hear it.

Goosebumps scattered across my skin,

and your fingers traced them like braille.

Devoted, determined to learn

whatever language my body chose to speak.

I prayed that the pit in my stomach was just butterflies,

but I knew better—

sin was brewing in my guts

yet i swallowed it like communion,

and was too greedy to throw it up.

I told myself it was only hunger,

but hunger doesn’t curdle into the sour taste of shame,

doesn’t linger like a hymn sung in an empty church.

Hunger wouldn’t dare to hollow out my ribs

and fill my bones with heaven’s weight.

So I let it pool under my tongue

sunk my teeth into supple skin and bit,

learned the flavor of my temptation,

Richard is known for raising two star tennis players; Serena and Venus Williams. In the movie based on how his girls became great, he mentions how he had a plan and stuck to it. He came up with this plan before the girls were born and wrote it all down in a journal. This book contained how & why Serena and Venus would be star tennis players; it explained why they would be the best. Richard constantly believed that his girls would be the best tennis players alive, even when things were rough. No matter what happened in life, he always persisted and said that the girls would be great because he had a plan. He always believed and never doubted himself or his daughters. Now look at them!

He believed

No matter what, he never let anyone tell him or his girls that they were not going to be great; simply because he knew they would be. He dedicated his whole life to believing in his daughters simply because he believed in them.

Belive in yourself! When affirming, remember that your affirmations are facts; not wishes. You have your desires, it’s just your belief that you don’t that’s holding you back.

He persisted

Richard and his faimly were not the wealthiest growing up. However, he never let this stop him from making sure he stuck to his plan. He would do exactly what he said he was going to do until he dropped dead and that’s what made his family succeed. Richard never gave up.

Now apply this to your life; don’t give up simply because you think your manifestations won’t show up. The only reason you do not already have them is because you think you don’t. Change your mindset!

Moral of the story

(i’m pretty sure this method is called the lullaby method but idrk. I think I ended up changing it to my liking.)

Anyways I’ve always liked this method because you don’t have to worry about being completely still like other methods. You can move as little or as much as you want to, as long as you’re comfortable. It’s helped me manifest so much faster since i’ve never rlly liked the process of getting into the void state. Don’t worry about opening your eyes during this method! If you open your eyes just simply close them again and start where you left off.

Lay down and get comfy, play some music if you want to (make sure you are comfortable and don’t open your eyes)

Affirm that you are tired or drowsy so that your mind will calm down

ex: “i am drowsy” “my mind is at peace” “I am calm” “I am tired”

3. When you have reached the point where you don’t get the urge to open your eyes anymore and just want to lay there with your eyes close, start to affirm. (your eyelids will probably feel heavy at this point, if they don’t that’s completely fine. As long as you are comfortable that’s good)

4. Affirm until you fall asleep! Don’t focus on falling asleep though, just continue using your affirmations and affirming them as facts until you drift off.

In this method I really like to use a mix of 3rd person affirmations and 1st person affirmations. I have found that talking about myself the way that I want others to perceive me works great!

(I plan to make a post on 3rd person affirmations later but for now here’s some examples)

Omg have you seen (y/n)? they’re so pretty!

Omg I love how (y/n) has such pretty eyes!

I love how (y/n) has such a attractive voice

(Y/n) is so confident!