if it meant forever with you

im sorry. its crazy its CRAZY how theo's narration was relatively content about his fake heterosexual lifestyle and then. the SECOND boris shows up again he's acknowledging his misery and suicidality and gay history and the deep web of lies his life has become. and all of this was there beneath the surface, it just took boris's presence to make it obvious to him

(goes to a polish restaurant in my hometown) (suddenly remembers i had gay sex repeatedly with my best friend) oh god the fucking decade of repressed misery and multiple suicide attempts...

cant tell if i wanna stomp around in boris’ fuck me boots or get stomped by them

the goldfinch but it’s only 3 straight hours of gyuri driving popchyk around in the car

there is something so comforting in reading the goldfinch while drinking coffee on a rainy day. yes i am gay.

shut UP the cutest shit is boris calling popchyk he and theo’s baby