daily calico

i also had less work or maybe less structure but it's been okay. let go of the situationship with that person and now i'm feeling more confident about this new month.

i actually went out last friday, went to a new café and it was pretty nice though the sun and packed busses make me so drained so fast. i want to plan more solo dates but i also found a singing school i want to try so maybe i'll use those days to have solo dates, like a little treat as I know trying new things and keeping constant through failure is going to be hard.

i think i've always had a rough time understanding progress means mistakes and trying over and over so idk, i wanna be compassionate with myself and, to be honest, condition myself that i get a nice treat after doing something hard... ver pavlovian but hopefully it works.

i've also been re-reading / re-watching heartstopper. I was in the middle of reading it and then after new years celebrations stop because i had so much to do and now i finished it, made me want to rewatch it and now re-reading it. the author is coming to my city soon and i'm excited, i want to be able to get some merch or just get to know more people with similar interests.