UnBlurringEdges

Distinct from general PTSD, Complex PTSD is caused by prolonged, recurring stress and trauma, often occurring in childhood & adolescence over an extended period of time. There are many risk factors, including: abusive/negligent caregivers, dysfunctional family life, untreated mental/chronic illness, and being the target of bullying/social alienation.

I’m not a mental health professional and I’m not qualified to diagnose anyone, I just remember a million watt light bulb going off in my head when I first learned about C-PTSD. It was a huge OH MY FUCKING WORD eureka moment for me—it explained all these problems I was confused and angry at myself for having. The symptoms that really stood out to me were:

Negative self-perception: deep-seated feelings of shame, guilt, worthlessness, helplessness, and stigma. Feeling like you are different from everyone else, like something is fundamentally ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’ with you.

Emotional avoidance of topics, people, relationships, activities, places, things etc that might cause uncomfortable emotions such as shame, fear, or sadness. Can lead to self-isolation.

Learned helplessness: a pervasive sense of powerlessness, often combined with feelings of desensitization, wherein you gradually stop trying to escape or prevent your own suffering, even when opportunities exist. May manifest as self-neglect or self-sabotage. (I remember watching myself make bad choices and neglect my responsibilities, and having no idea why I was doing it, or how to stop myself. Eventually I just stopped caring, which led to more self-neglect.)

Be more aware of this bluntness in yourself also. Mercury in Aries will make this worse. With mercury conjunct Chiron, you may unintentionally hurt others also with your words. Keep consideration and perspective on what their going though.

Reflect before you respond. You may be easily triggered also. Don’t react, respond! Watch for the defense with others.

Excercise mindfullness in your response. Whether your reviving information or giving it. 💚

Mars and Saturn will also be in a conjunction. The thing your feeling urgency around you can give it a little time. Things will feel heated up but it’s just fate stepping in. Unexpected challenges will be arise but they’re for the better. Journal, reflect and sit with the energy and use it, don’t let it use you.

King of Cups represents mastery over the realms of emotion, creativity and the unconscious.