∆Ash.✌🏽♥️✨

I wasn’t a good friend in the past. And for those that came into my life, who built friendships with me, built sisterly bonds, and where there was always love I truly without a shadow of a doubt appreciate you and apologize. Apologize because you deserved more, deserved better and at that time I couldn’t give it to you. That’s no excuse and I realize that. I wish I could’ve been in a good place, a good head space, to give what I know I should’ve. I try to live with no regrets and I try to remain present- in the moment now so I no longer take for granted what is going on right in front of me right at this moment in time but there’s a little piece of sadness that still lingers. Pieces that long for those relationships in the past just so I can do better. Be better for you. As a friend, a sister, as someone who was my family. I’m sorry. It may never be enough but I say it because I’ve held it in my heart for a long time. Now I’m trying to take steps to make it better. I wish for the courage in the near future to say it to you personally. I’d say sorry for how my actions made you feel, how it made you feel unimportant but I won’t apologize for the me time I needed to get to where I am now. Without that time I would’ve never realized that I was taking friendships for granted. I wasn’t the friend I wanted to be and everything just kind of fell to the wayside. I take a little comfort in knowing that for the most part the girl you used to know no longer exists. the little pieces you could tell was really part of my soul are still there but they shine bigger and brighter without the dark clouds that followed. I wish things could’ve been different but if they had been maybe I wouldn’t be where I am now. So I thank you for all the loving words, hugs, conversation, advice, and the way you were a sister to me. I still have big love for you, always in my mind, on my heart, and especially in my prayers.

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