"do i really have to put it in?"
"well, it's not like it would work the other way around. i'm too big and you're too small."
"bbut i don't wanna," you whine. that pill she made you take made your private parts painfully stiff. it feels so gross. you don't like feeling anything coming from that part of your body, but now it's hard and sensitive and cold from the lube.
"look, you gotta learn how to top eventually. i'll lead the way." she lies back on the bed, spreads her legs, holds your waist, and guides you between her thighs. she was right, unfortunately; hers is almost as thick as your wrist, so there's no way it would fit inside you.
you flinch as she wraps her finger and thumb around your shaft, pulling you forward until your tip is pressing against her hole.
"w-wait no wait sis i really really don't like this ple-" she isn't listening, or doesn't care. she holds your hips and pulls you all the way in. your pleas are reduced to a choked sob. you hate it you hate it you hate it. you hate even remembering that part of your body exists but now you can only feel her hot, tight, squishy insides overpowering every other one of your senses. even staying still, your throbs and her heartbeat make it impossible to feel nothing.
you try to pull out, but her fingers dig into your hips and yank you back in. you collapse forward and sob into her chest, her familiar scent invading your nostrils but providing no comfort. you kick your feet against the bed, scratch at her sides, and let out an unintelligible plea, none of which even phase her.
then she starts moving you back and forth. the tight ring of her entrance slides up and down on your private part, making a yucky squelching noise with each thrust. you try your best to mentally check out, but you're dragged back each time your hips collide.
it's only a few more thrusts before that feeling starts in your tummy, pooling lower and lower until you can feel your release bubbling up from the inside. your entire body goes taut, trying to will that gross feeling back down, but it's too late. she lets go of you as your instincts take over, slamming forward a few more times before emptying your thin load as deep as you can reach inside her.
you finally zone back in, not sure how long it's been. it feels even worse now. you're still rock hard, the heightened sensitivity making her pulse overwhelming. she lets you slip out of her, turning the both of you over so that she's on top. you lie against the sweaty covers as you try to collect yourself.
"you did such a good job. and i barely had to help you! you're such a good girl." ...huh? maybe you did do most of the work... the thought makes your stomach churn. you try to tell her how that made you feel, or at least thank her for her encouragement, but no words come out. she fixes your disheveled hair, wipes away your tears, and runs her nails over your scalp.
"just relax, sis. i'll do all the work this time..." she coos as she lines you up to penetrate again.
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an: im lucky that i usually have no bottom dysphoria, but it gets bad every once in a while.
...im also lucky that i can sexualize that dysphoria